Sunday, January 04, 2009

The answer was YES

I love you baby
I am missing you a lot more dam u know
I wish I was right there with u
U in my arms or I in your arms

We are about to come into the1 year mark
And I most admit to you there is nothing that I will change

My love for you is getting bigger than I ever thought it will
All my dreams are coming true
My soul has open
My heart has starting beating so much I can feel it in my chest

I can’t wait to see what this year has for us
But I know whatever it is
It will make us both stronger and bring us even closer

Baby I want u to save your money
Baby I want you to start your degree
Baby I want you to be u

I love you baby
U are invite to dinner on the 25th of jan @ 9 pm
Are u interested

Yes or No

Answer
Yes

Friday, January 02, 2009

Happy New Yr

I will like to say happy new year to all and the best wishes for the new yr.

Sunday, December 07, 2008

The Lesbian Survey

. How old were you when you had your 1st girlfriend?
Do you consider yourself Butch, Femme, Stud, or No Labels?
Do you have medium, short, or long hair?
Do you wear make-up?
Do you wear men or women's clothes?
Do you wear cologne or perfume?
Do you carry a wallet or a purse?
Do you own any clothing that is pink?
Do you know how to cook?
Do you like flowers?
Do you wear a bathing suit, or a tshirt and swimming trunks?
Has anyone ever mistaken you for a man?
Are you/were you a drag king?
Have you ever considered having a sex change and becoming a man?
Are you into sports?If so, which do you prefer?
Who's your favorite well-known lesbian?
Who's your favorite well-known lesbian singer?
What's your favorite lesbian movie?
Do you ever wear a hat?
If so, how do you wear it?
Are most of your friends male or female?
Do you consider yourself a "giver" or a "taker?"
Do you own any high heels?
How about a dress or a shirt?
What about a Tux?
How often do you go to the gay clubs?
Ever wore anything to make your chest flat, so you could look like a male?
Do you have your tongue pierced?
Do your parents know that you're a lesbian?
Do you have a deep, medium, or high voice?
Ever been to a Gay Pride Parade?
Do you think homosexuals will ever be able to legally marry?
Do you believe you were born a lesbian or was it your choice?
Do you plan on giving birth to your own children,or adopting, etc

17 signs u love someone‏

SEVENTEEN: You look at their profile constantly.
SIXTEEN: When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.
FIFTEEN: You read their Texts and Ims Over and over again.
FOURTEEN: You walk really slow when you're with them.
THIRTEEN: You feel shy whenever they're around.
ELEVEN: When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time. TEN: You smile when you hear their voice.
NINE: When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her. EIGHT: You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.
SEVEN: They're all you think about.
SIX: You get high just from their scent.
FIVE: You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.
FOUR: You would do anything for them, just to see them.
THREE: While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.
TWO: You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number twelve was missing
ONE: You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself

Monday, September 29, 2008

i can't stop thinking

i can't stop thinking about your smile the first time we met .....I can't stop thinking about the joy i felt the first time that we talked....I can't stop thinking about the first time you laughed when I tickled your side......I can stop thinking of your eyes the first time you declared your love......I can't stop thinking how sweet it felt the first time we kissed.....I can't stop thiking how rude your waist moved the first time we danced.....I can't stop thinking of the first time i herd your voice I love the way you said your name ....yes this is Tisha Cox.....I can't stop thinking of the first time I held your hand it was so warm and soft.....I can't stop thinking of the first time we made love ....it still sends shivers dowm my spine.....I can't stop thining about you and I don't want to...because I want to think about you forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever ....Love

Monday, August 04, 2008

I Can't Stop

I can't stop thinking about youWondering if you think of me, tooI can't stop thinking of your lipsOh! How soft they are between mineI can't stop imagining your handsAs they caress my every hair and limbI can't stop thinking of your faceHow I love it and it thanks me in return.I can't stop thinking of your voice,As sexy as the body it possesses.I can't stop feeling your touch inside me.My temperature rises and emotions explode.I can't stop thinking of how much I want you,how I need youNo matter what you do,I can't stop thinking about you.

Can I Have You?

Can I have you- Oh, please say, "yes"Because in my heart I will accept nothing less.Can I have you to cherish and to loveBecause you truly are a blessing from the heavens above. Can I have you when I open my eyesAnd when my emotions turn into waterfall-like cries.Can I have you when things are going wrong'Cause I know- if I have you it won't last very long. Can I have you from sunrise 'till sunsetBecause having you always is something I'll never regret.Can I have you in my arms like I have you in my heartBecause I love everything about you, each and every part. If there's anyone else for me... then, please tell me "who?"But since there's not, just answer this... Can I have you?

How I Miss You

My Darling, How I miss your touchI miss your whisper of 'I love you so much'Your love is so sweet, so gentle, so tenderSo wonderful - just like the senderMy love for you is so true and so deepI pray that my love you will forever keepI love you more each and every dayI love you, Baby - in every wayI love it when you Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! ! ! ! !OMG - that makes me Purrrrrrrrrrr! ! ! !LYL - is where I want to beMe pleasing you and you pleasing meI want to be touching you - skin to skinBaby - I am ready for our life to beginI am counting the days until thenYou will long for love - never againI will love you like crazy for the rest of your lifeYou will have the best friend, lover and wifeI want to be your everythingI want to be what makes your heart singI love you, Darling - please never doubtI love you so much - I want to ShoutUntil we are together again - hold me in your heartI am holding you in mine - as I have from the start copyright (c) Texas Rose

Monday, July 28, 2008

wet

Wetness does not always pertain to water
in an ocean, river or lake;
Sometimes it refers to how I feel
when I remember your embrace.

I only have to think of you
to remember me in your arms;
My legs quivering, my mouth moaning
I have fallen captive to your charms.

I long to feel your body on mine
to know the taste of satisfied love;
To lie quietly in your arms
we fit together like a hand to a glove.

You are the sweetheart of my life
you are my one sure bet;
You never have to wonder babe . . .
you can always keep me wet.

CUTE LOVE STORY

- A BOY HAD CANCER AND HE HAD ONE MONTH TO LIVE. HE LIKED A GIRL WORKING IN A CD SHOP VERY MUCH. BUT HE DID NOT TELL HER ABOUT HIS LUV. EVERYDAY HE WENT TO THE CD SHOP AND BOUGHT A CD ONLY TO TALK TO HER. AFTER A MONTH HE DIED. WHEN THE GIRL WENT TO HIS HOME AND ASKED ABOUT HIM, HIS MOM TOLD HER THAT HE DIED AND TOOK HER TO HIS ROOM........................ SHE SAW ALL THE CD'S UNOPENED ......... THE GIRL CRIED N CRIED N FINALLY DIED. YOU KNOW Y SHE CRIED? ÇOZ SHE HAD KEPT HER OWN LUV LETTERS INSIDE THE CD PACKS. SHE ALSO LUVED HIM........ moral of the story: if u love someone......say to him directly don't wait for the destiny to play the role..

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Love Letter 2 ME

I dived into the ocean swam deep beneath the sea to search for my one true love but I couldn’t breathe…..
I climbed the highest mountain in the dead of night searching for my one true love but I couldn’t see…..

Then one night I called a stranger at 11:53, you answered all my questions with total honesty, we spoke until 2 the next morning, it felt so real I think at that very moment my heart began to beat and I began to breathe….
We met one week later at the mall for a casual lime, we felt so comfortable with each so much so we couldn’t believe for at that very moment my eyes were opened and began to see…….
We sat across from each other just to share a meal cause you were late unintentionally and I was extremely hungry…..then we began to chat and talk for a while you probably couldn’t tell but I was a little nervous OK I was nervous as hell…. You ate pizza and I had chinese food guess seeing you filled my stomach because I didn’t really eat much at all…. I kept thinking what stunning eyes you have but nothing could prepare me for your gorgeous smile and then something strange happen…. I saw a glimpse of your cute rider and oh my God I almost died……
We saw each other almost every week and I was determine to win your heart because you lit a fire the I had kept hidden deep inside….you were always pleasant and our conversations were intoxication….I looked forward to your phone calls waking you up, walking you out and saying good night became the best moments of my entire day…..

I pursued you with a passion I never thought I had and your responses aroused feelings stimulating my heart .…..I remembered the first time I kissed you it was at a club, we danced so close it was like making love… OH GOD I DO LOVE YOU!
Two months later we became lovers you were my first…. oh God how your kisses drove me crazy…..my heart was pounding incontrollable….I begged you to touch me ……our love making lasted all night long, unforgettable are those moments when our bodies united to become one, memories of sweet sensations will linger forever in my heart and mind…..
Now almost six months later we’ve been through good, bad, happy and sad and yet we have SURVIVED…..
For thirty-eight years I walked barefooted in the desert…. stumbling and alone…. tired and thirsty searching for my one true love……completely exhausted filled with desperation from my long hard search I stopped to rested awhile and as I gently closed my eyes and in that astounding moment I realized……my one true love was always with me for my one true love is YOU….. you were right here safe in my heart always protecting my soul…..
Now my search is over I’ve found the one I love…..all I ask of you is to continue to quench my thirst….be my light through the darkness……share your love with me until the end of time ……let me love you……share with me your tears and smiles because it only takes one glimpse of your cute rider to set my heart and soul on fire…….

Sunday, April 06, 2008

What's Your Sign?

Once you have opened this e-mail, there's no turning back. Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs. Read your sign, then forward it on, with your zodiac sign and label on the subject line. This is the real deal, try ignoring or changing it, and the first thing you'll notice is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from there. Remember, if you are on the cusp of another sign you most likely will have features of both signs...which may lead you into total confusion... ...

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart ~ ( Jan 20 - Feb 18 ) Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.

PISCES - The Dreamer ~ ( Feb 19 - Mar 20 ) Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Un selfish.Good kisser. Beautiful.
ARIES - The Daredevil (Mar 21 - April 19 ) Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.

TAURUS - The Enduring One ~ ( April 20 - May 20th ) Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings who are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts.Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.
GEMINI - The Chatterbox ~ ( May 21 - June 20 ) Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Likes change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent. Beautiful physically and mentally.
CANCER - The Protector ~ (June 21 - July 22 ) Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.
LEO - The Boss ~ ( July 23 - Aug 22 ) Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Likes boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy, attractive. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leo's.

VIRGO - The Perfectionist ~ Dominant ~ ( Aug 23 - Sept 22) In relationships, very conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.
LIBRA - The Harmonizer ( Sept 23 - Oct 22 ) Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.
SCORPIO - The Intense One ~ Very Energetic ~ (Oct 23 - Nov 21 ) Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long Relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional..
SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One ~ (Nov 22 - Dec 21 ) Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome ). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Beautiful inside and out.
CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter ~ ( Dec 22 - Jan 19 ) Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be Good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimistic. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.

Fighting Fairly In A Relationship

Fighting fair means following guidelines that promote a safe and fair fight where both partners allow each other to express feelings and positions fully, and hear each other out, no matter how deep the disagreement. Follow these guidelines: 1. Be specific when you introduce a complaint. Confine yourself to one issue at a time. 2. Don't just complain. Ask for a reasonable change to help resolve the problem 3. Do not make the situation seem hopeless by overloading your partner with complaints. 4. Do not let counter-demands enter the picture until the original request is clearly understood and there has been a clear-cut response. 5. No cross-complaining. When the other person complains, don't answer with a complaint. 6. Do not be sarcastic or intolerant. Be open to your own feelings and equally open to your partner's. 7. Do not correct a partner's statement of his/her own feelings. Do not tell a partner what s/he should know or feel. 8. Never assume that you know what a partner is thinking until you have checked out the assumption in plain language. Do not predict how s/he will react. 9. Always be open to compromise. Your partner's view of reality may be as real as yours, even though you may differ. 10. Never make labeling statements, accusations or put-downs. Name calling, snide remarks, put-downs or negative facial expressions are unacceptable, unproductive and damaging to your relationship. 11. Forget the past and stay in the here and now. Don't use "always," "never" or "should." What happened last month is not as important as what you are feeling now.12. Don't interrupt. Let the other person finish before you speak. 13. No physical violence allowed. This is a firm guideline for fair fighting. 14. Time out is okay. If things get too heated, ask to continue the discussion at another time. Specify the time. 15. Remember, there is never a single winner in an honest and intimate disagreement. Both partners either win more intimacy or lose it.

Friday, February 29, 2008

Balgobin (a MUST READ; CLEVERLY DONE)‏

MATH TEACHER: Balgobin, why are you doing your math sums on the floor? Balgobin: You tell me to do it without using tables! GO SLOW TEACHER: Balgobin why are you late? Balgobin: Because of the sign. TEACHER: What sign? Balgobin: The one that says, 'School Ahead, Go Slow.' CROC TEACHER: Balgobin, how do you spell 'crocodile'? Balgobin: 'K-R-O-K-O-D-A-I-L' TEACHER: No, that's wrong Balgobin: Maybe. If yuh seh so. But you ask me how I spell it! H2O TEACHER: What is the chemical formula for water? Balgobin: I know!! It's 'HIJKLMNO'!!TEACHER: What are you talking about?Balgobin: Yesterday you said it's H to
O! WHO DISCOVER GUYANA TEACHER: Balgobin, go to the map and find Guyana . Balgobin: Here it is! TEACHER: Correct. Now, class, who discovered Guyana ? CLASS: Balgobin! VERY IMPORTANT TEACHER: Balgobin, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.Balgobin: Me! I TEACHER: Balgobin, give me a sentence starting with 'I.' Balgobin: I is... TEACHER: No, no, Balgobin. Always say, 'I am.' Balgobin: All right... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.' COINCIDENCE TEACHER: 'Can anybody give an example of COINCIDENCE?' Balgobin: 'Sir, my mother and father got married on the same day, and at the same time.' SAY YOUR PRAYERS TEACHER: Now, Balgobin, tell me frankly do you say
prayers before eating? Balgobin: No sir, I don't have to, my mom is a good cook. MY DOG, YOUR DOG TEACHER: Balgobin, your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his? Balgobin: No, teacher! It's the same dog!SMUDGE RESPONSE The arithmetic teacher had written 10.9 on the blackboard and had then rubbed out the decimal point to show the effect of multiplying this number by ten.'Balgobin,' the teacher asked, 'where is the decimal point now?' 'On the eraser!' JUST A DOT The kindergarten class had a homework assignment to find out about something exciting and relate it to the class the next day. When the time came for the little kids to give their reports, the teacher was calling on them one at a time. She was reluctant to call on little
Balgobin, knowing that he sometimes could be a bit crude. But, eventually, his turn came....Little Balgobin walked up to the front of the class and, with a piece of chalk, made a small white dot on the blackboard, then sat back down. Well, the teacher couldn't figure out what Balgobin had in mind for his report on something exciting, so she asked him just what that was. 'It's a period,' reported Balgobin.'Well, I can see that,' she said, 'but what's so exciting about a period?' 'Me nah know', said Balgobin, 'but, this morning, me sister say she miss one. Me Daddy get a heart attack. Me mother faint. And the next ting we know, the man next door shoot he self!' FACES Finding little Balgobin making faces at others on the playground, Ms. Sita stopped to gently reprove the child.Smiling sweetly, the school teacher said, 'Balgobin, when I was a child, I
was told if that I made ugly faces, it would freeze and I would stay like that.' Balgobin looked up, shook his head and replied, 'Well, Ms Sita, you can't say nobody didn't warn yuh. You should have listened!'

Friday, February 22, 2008

it doh matter wat d hell u say...i wudnt get vex or nothin jus b honest...lol

Fill this out about me and send it bak *BUT FIRST* Send A Blank Copy To All Of Your Friends (Including Me) So They Can Fill It Out About You! Got It?? BE HONEST!!!


AM I??

1. Quiet
Loud?

2. Short
Tall?

3. Weird / Original

4. Nice / Mean

5. Friendly / Selfish

6. Normal / 'Special'

7. Smart / Stupid

8. Boring / Fun

9. Attractive / Unattractive


DO YOU THINK I'M...


1. A psycho?:

2. A nerd?:

3. An asshole?:

4. Ghetto?:

5. A faggot?:

6. Two-faced?:

7. Obnoxious?:

8. Immature?:

9. Mature?:

11. Moody?:

12. Stoner?:

13. Alcoholic?

14. Lovable?:


JUST SOME QUESTIONS


1. What do u think I'll be when I grow up?:

2. (a) Do u think I'll get married?:

(b) If u do..who do u think I'll marry?:

3. When is my birthday?:

4. Who is my best friend?:

5. What song (if any) reminds u of me?:

6. Do I remind u of any characters on TV?:

7. If u could rename me...what would my name be?:

8. Have u ever had a dream about me?:

9. What was it?

10. If u could give me anything...what would it be?:

11. If u could promise me anything..what would it be?:

12. If you could have anything that I have what would it be?:


PERSONAL(OPPOSITE SEX)


1. Would u ever kiss me?:

2. Would u ever consider being my boyfriend?:

3. Do u ever think about me off-line?:

4. If we spent a day together.where would we go and what would we do?:

5. If u could describe me in one word...what would that word be?:

6. (a)Do u or have u ever had a crush on me?:

(b)Do u still have a crush on me?

7. u KNOW u want me?:

8. (a)Do u think u would have a chance with me?:

(b)Would I have a chance with u?:

9.If I asked you out what would you say?:

10.(a)If I told u I loved you would it change our relationship?:

(b)If yes how?:

11.If you could change anything about me what would it be?:


**EVERYBODY**


1. Do u wish we were closer?

2. What is your complete opinion of me?


No matter what you say, I'll still love all of you!!

ARE YOU SMARTER THAN A 5TH GRADER?

There are 7 girls in a bus
Each girl has 7 backpacks
In each backpack, there are 7 big cats
For every big cat there are 7 little cats
Question: How many legs are there in the bus?


The number of legs is the password to unlock the Excel sheet.
If you open it, add your name and send it on to see who else can unlock it.



Send it back to let the person know you got it correct.
This is a real math problem so don't say that a bus has no legs.
If you get the correct answer that's the password to the spreadsheet.
Put your name in the column with the names and forward it on,
if you were smart enough to get
the right answer.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Please let me know when you solve this little brain teaser


There are 7 girls on a bus
Each girl has 7 backpacks
In each backpack, there are 7 big cats
For every big cat there are 7 little cats

Question: How many legs are there in the bus?
(See attached file: Legs(1).xls)

The number of legs is the password to unlock the Excel sheet.
If you open it, add your name and send it on to see who else can unlock
it.

Thursday, February 07, 2008

if you woke up one mornin and saw me in your bed wat would you do?

1) go back to sleep
2) slap me
3) cuss me out
4) jus tell me to leave
5) climb on top of me and cuddle
6) have sex with me .... details please!
7) make me breakfast
8) ask me my name (lol)
9) call the cops
10) kiss on me
Repost with the title IF I WAS IN YOUR BED!!!!! an see how many ppl want u in their bed....

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Meaning of color and your Birthday

Don't cheat, If you are honest, this tells the truth. It's pretty good. Write your answers on a piece of paper,

and NO cheating!! The answers are at the bottom.


1. Which is your favorite color out of:
red , black , blue , green , or yellow ?

2. Your first initial?

3. Your month of birth?

4. Which color do you like more, black or white?

5. Name of a person of the same sex as yours.

6. Your favorite number?

7. Do you like
Flying or Driving more?

8. Do you like a
lake or the ocean more?

9. Write down a wish (a realistic one).


When you're done, scroll down. (Don't cheat!)


Answers

1. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - You are conservative and aggressive.
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.
Blue- You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love.
Yellow - You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

2. If your initial is:
A-K You have a lot of love and friendships in your life.
L-R You try to enjoy your life to the maximum & your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

3. If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.
April-June:
You will have a strong love relationship that will not last long but the memories will last forever.
July-Sep:
You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.
Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.

4. If you chose:
Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at the time but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This pe rson is your best friend.

6. This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.

7. If you chose:
Flying: You like adventure.
Driving: You are a laid back person.

8.. If you chose:
Lake: You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people.

9. This wish will come true only if you send this to five people in one hour. Send it to ten people, and it will come true before your next birthday

Monday, January 21, 2008

The Kitchen Bitch

The Kitchen Bitch

A mother was working in the kitchen listening to
her 5-year-old son playing with his new electric train in the living
room. She heard the train stop and her son saying,

"All of you sons of bitches, who want off, get the hell off now...
cause this is the last stop!

And all of you sons of bitches who are getting on,
get your asses on the train... cause we're going down the tracks.

The horrified mother went in and told her son, "We
don't use that kind of language in this house. Now I want you to go to
your room and you are to stay there for TWO HOURS.

When you come out, you may play with your train...
but I want you to use nice language."
Two hours later, the boy came out of the bedroom
and resumed playing with his train.

Soon the train stopped and the mother heard her son say...
"All passengers, please remember your things, thank you and hope your trip was a pleasant one.

We hope you will ride with us again soon."

She heard her little darling continue... "For those of you just boarding, remember, there is no smoking in the train. We hope you will
have a pleasant and relaxing journey with us today."

As the mother began to smile, the child added,

"For those of you who are pissed off about the TWO HOUR delay,
please see the bitch in the kitchen...."

Cancer

1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a few billion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests are unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size.

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person's lifetime

3. When the person's immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumors.

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic, environmental, food and lifestyle factors.

5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the immune system.

6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow, gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.

7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.

8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do not result in more tumor destruction.

9 When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hence the person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications.

10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also cause cancer cells to spread to other sites.

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer cells by not feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.

CANCER CELLS FEED ON:

a. Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Sugar substitutes like NutraSweet, Equal,Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molasses but only in very small amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in color. Better alternative is Bragg's aminos or sea salt.

b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milk and substituting with unsweetened soya milk cancer cells are being starved.

c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather than beef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to people with cancer.

d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains,seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkaline environment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed and reach down to cellular levels within 15 minutes to nourish and enhance growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for building healthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts)and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at
temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C).

e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine.Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties. Water-best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.

12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines become putrified and leads to more toxic buildup.

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the body's killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.

14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence, Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable the body's own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplements like vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, the body's normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or unneeded cells.

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor. Anger, unforgiveness and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax and enjoy life.

16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellular level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells.

(PLEASE FORWARD IT TO PEOPLE YOU CARE ABOUT)

CANCER UPDATE FROM
JOHN HOPKINS HOSPITAL , U S - PLEASE READ

1. No plastic containers in micro.

2. No water bottles in freezer.

3. No plastic wrap in microwave.

Johns Hopkins has recently sent this out in its newsletters. This information is being circulated at
Walter Reed Army Medical Center as well.
Dioxin chemicals causes cancer, especially breast cancer.
Dioxins are highly poisonous to the cells of our bodies.
Don't freeze your plastic bottles with water in them as this releases dioxins from the plastic.
Recently, Dr. Edward Fujimoto, Wellness Program Manager at
Castle Hospital , was on a TV

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

A rape story

You are one flippin sick person if you dont send this i feel for you if this doesn't touch you because this is just wrong. read this. its disgusting Walking in my nighty; rubbing my eyes My fathers sitting on the sofa with his friend He pats the seat in the middle; i sit Shivering so cold; a quilt he lends "Jessy you love me dont you" a smile; his Their breathe spirts weep "Daddy you know i do; what is it?" He smiles at his friend; his hand creeps His friend takes my hand; looks me in the eyes Daddys creeping up my nightie; cold hands I try to pull his hand away; grip is strong! They look at one another; nod; something planned I feel my palms sweat; Daddys under my knickers "Daddy im going to bed! Night" Pulling again But there grip is to strong for weak me I look at both; and ask, who are these men? His fingers going up me; pulling away His friend leans forward; a kiss? Why? His toungue moving mine; my eyes squint Lean back and away; "Why are you doing this?" No answer, i feel the pain inside me; him Chucks the quilt on the floor; me to I try and scamper away, but im not fast "O Daddy please, i love you" His friend; pulling at my nightie And my Dad pulling my pants down His friend pinning my hands to the floor As my Dad lies himself on the ground I squirm; as Daddy friend pulls me up And places me ontop of Daddy; thrusts within I cry; i bite; i scratch; i slap; i fail "O Daddy please you win you win!" I can feel my skin rip; my virginity breaking free I can feel the blood seep down my leg "Daddy your hurting me please" I plead to him and his friend; not even a beg Daddys laughing; why does he laugh? His friend shoves himself in my mouth and moans Tieing my hands togather; moving in and out "Ride me Jessy" He laughs and groans They smile at one another; laugh to They roll me over and spread me wide wel My daddy sits on my face; himself in again While his friend talks and pushes himself inside I can hardly breathe; i gag for air I cough and splutter; cry and weep I beg and plead; but its no use Theyve already made me hurt and bleed I stare into his eyes; that look upon me This is not my Dad; where is he? If he was still here; would he care Would he actually even; see? Finally they get of and lie me on the sofa My cheeks blouchy from tears and pain They play with them selfs; all over me Rub it in; making me feel the shame "Why Daddy? Please tell me why?" Dad looks at his friend; and waves him away "Jessy i love you" he smiles and kisses my cheek "Is that all you have in your heart to say?" He puts my nightie on me I walks me to my bedroom door Ever since that night; His friend And himself every Friday come back for more "Night sweet Girl; You are my life" Closing the door, tears still down my face Still the smell of him and his friend Fade into me like disgrace I watch the Moon go down; the sun come up "Jessy its school" Knocking at my door I cant help but cry; weep in pain Because im so scared he wanted more But one night daddy took it too far Daddy and his friend came back for one last shot They were worried they would get caught So he and his friend took me to a cemetary lot I was blindfolded and my hands were tied back "Daddy please!! Not tonight!" Daddy and his friend both had their last fun After that i tried to put up a fight I begged daddy "Please no more!" All he could say "Shut up you stupid whore!" Daddy unblindfolded me at last He said I love you so much He went back into the car and pulled out a bat "Daddy I swear I wont say a thing!!!!" I was dead After only one swing.......................... **Please if you care for all the children and women who have been raped send this to 12 people with the Headline "A Rape Story" If you do not send this you are promoting rape and violence! YOU PERVERT! GOD SHOULD NOT FORGIVE YOU!!!!!!!

Saturday, January 12, 2008

A rape story

You are one flippin sick person if you dont send this i feel for you if this doesn't touch you because this is just wrong. read this. its disgusting Walking in my nighty; rubbing my eyes My fathers sitting on the sofa with his friend He pats the seat in the middle; i sit Shivering so cold; a quilt he lends "Jessy you love me dont you" a smile; his Their breathe spirts weep "Daddy you know i do; what is it?" He smiles at his friend; his hand creeps His friend takes my hand; looks me in the eyes Daddys creeping up my nightie; cold hands I try to pull his hand away; grip is strong! They look at one another; nod; something planne I feel my palms sweat; Daddys under my knickers "Daddy im going to bed! Night" Pulling again But there grip is to strong for weak me I look at both; and ask, who are these men? His fingers going up me; pulling away His friend leans forward; a kiss? Why? His toungue moving mine; my eyes squint Lean back and away; "Why are you doing this?" No answer, i feel the pain inside me; him Chucks the quilt on the floor; me to I try and scamper away, but im not fast "O Daddy please, i love you" His friend; pulling at my nightie And my Dad pulling my pants down His friend pinning my hands to the floor As my Dad lies himself on the ground I squirm; as Daddy friend pulls me up And places me ontop of Daddy; thrusts within I cry; i bite; i scratch; i slap; i fail "O Daddy please you win you win!" I can feel my skin rip; my virginity breaking free I can feel the blood seep down my leg "Daddy your hurting me please" I plead to him and his friend; not even a beg Daddys laughing; why does he laugh? His friend shoves himself in my mouth and moans Tieing my hands togather; moving in and out "Ride me Jessy" He laughs and groans They smile at one another; laugh to They roll me over and spread me wide wel My daddy sits on my face; himself in again While his friend talks and pushes himself inside I can hardly breathe; i gag for air I cough and splutter; cry and weep I beg and plead; but its no use Theyve already made me hurt and bleed I stare into his eyes; that look upon me This is not my Dad; where is he? If he was still here; would he care Would he actually even; see? Finally they get of and lie me on the sofa My cheeks blouchy from tears and pain They play with them selfs; all over me Rub it in; making me feel the shame "Why Daddy? Please tell me why?" Dad looks at his friend; and waves him away "Jessy i love you" he smiles and kisses my cheek "Is that all you have in your heart to say?" He puts my nightie on me I walks me to my bedroom door Ever since that night; His friend And himself every Friday come back for more "Night sweet Girl; You are my life" Closing the door, tears still down my face Still the smell of him and his friend Fade into me like disgrace I watch the Moon go down; the sun come up "Jessy its school" Knocking at my door I cant help but cry; weep in pain Because im so scared he wanted more But one night daddy took it too far Daddy and his friend came back for one last shot They were worried they would get caught So he and his friend took me to a cemetary lot I was blindfolded and my hands were tied back "Daddy please!! Not tonight!" Daddy and his friend both had their last fun After that i tried to put up a fight I begged daddy "Please no more!" All he could say "Shut up you stupid whore!" Daddy unblindfolded me at last He said I love you so much He went back into the car and pulled out a bat "Daddy I swear I wont say a thing!!!!" I was dead After only one swing.......................... **Please if you care for all the children and women who have been raped send this to 12 people with the Headline "A Rape Story" If you do not send this you are promoting rape and violence! YOU PERVERT! GOD SHOULD NOT FORGIVE YOU!!!!!!!

Thursday, January 10, 2008

A nurse

A nurse took the tired, anxious serviceman to the bedside.>>
"Your son is here," she said to the old man>>
She had to repeat the words several times before the >patient's eyes opened.>>
Heavily sedated because of the pain of his heart attack, he >dimly saw the young uniformed>
Marine standing outside the oxygen tent. He reached out his >hand. The Marine wrapped his toughened fingers around the old man's limp >ones, squeezing a message of love and encouragement..>>
The nurse brought a chair so that the Marine could sit beside >the bed.All through the night>
the young Marine sat there in the poorly lighted ward,holding >the old man's hand and offering> him words of love and strength.Occasionally, the nurse >suggested that the Marine move away>
and rest awhile.>>
He refused. Whenever the nurse came into the ward, the Marine >was oblivious of her and of>
the night noises of the hospital - the clanking of the oxygen >tank, the laughter of the night> staff members exchanging greetings, the cries and moans of the >other patients.>>
Now and then she heard him say a few gentle words. The dying >man said nothing, only held> tightly to his son all through the night.>>
Along towards dawn, the old man died. The Marine released the >now lifeless hand he had>
been holding and went to tell the nurse. While she did what >she had to do, he waited.>>
Finally, she returned. She started to offer words of sympathy, >but the Marine interrupted her.>>
"Who was that man?" he asked. The nurse was startled, "He was >your father," she answered.>
"No, he wasn't," the Marine replied. "I never saw him before >in my life.">>
"Then why didn't you say something when I took you to him?">>
"I knew right away there had been a mistake, but I also knew >he needed his son, and his>
son just wasn't here. When I realized that he was too sick>>
to tell whether or not I was his son, knowing how much he >needed me, I stayed.">> The next time someone needs you ... just be there. Stay.>>
WE ARE NOT HUMAN BEINGS GOING THROUGH A>
TEMPORARY SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE.>>
WE ARE SPIRITUAL BEINGS GOING THROUGH A TEMPORARY>
HUMAN EXPERIENCE.>
(love this line)>>
PLEASE PASS THIS ONE ON AND GOD WILL BLESS YOU!>
THIS IS WHAT WE ARE PUT ON THIS EARTH TO DO ANYWAY RIGHT ?> HAVE A GREAT DAY AND BLESS SOMEONE ELSE IN SOME LITTLE WAY >TODAY!> GOD IS SO GOOD.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

HOROSCOPE

This is HOROSCOPE for you Once you have opened this e-mail, there's no turning back. Below are true deions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologic predictor. Read your sign, then forward it on, with your zodiac sign and label on the subject line, This is real deal, try ignoring it, and the first thing you'll notice is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from there.

SCORPIO - The Addict EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humour. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

VIRGO - The One that Waits Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LIBRA - The Dangerous One Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with ... u might end up crying... 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

ARIES - The Liar Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. 2 years of bad luck if you do not forward

GEMINI - Irresistible Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in the you know where... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward

LEO - The Lion Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CANCER - The Cutie MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

PISCES - The Partner for Life Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

TAURUS - The Tramp Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with- you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward"

Friday, January 04, 2008

One Day

One day, when a seamstress was sewing while sitting close to a river, her thimble fell into the river. When she cried out, the Lord appeared and asked, "My dear child, why are you crying?" The seamstress replied that her thimble had fallen into the water and that she needed it to help her husband in making a living for their family. The Lord dipped His hand into the water and pulled up a golden thimble set with sapphires.
"Is this your thimble?" the Lord asked The seamstress replied, "No."
The Lord again dipped into the river. He held out a golden thimble studded with rubies.

"Is this your thimble?" the Lord asked. Again, the seamstress replied, "No."
The Lord reached down again and came up with a leather thimble.

"Is this your thimble ?" the Lord asked. The seamstress replied, "Yes." The Lord was pleased with the woman's honesty and gave her all three thimbles to keep, and the seamstress went home happy.

Some years later, the seamstress was walking with her husband along the riverbank, and her husband fell into the river and disappeared under the water. When she cried out, the Lord again appeared and asked her, "Why are you crying?" "Oh Lord, my husband has fallen into the river!"
The Lord went down into the water and came up with George Clooney. "Is this your husband?" the Lord asked.
"Yes," cried the seamstress. The Lord was furious. "You lied! That is an untruth!" The seamstress replied, "Oh, forgive me, my Lord. It is a misunderstanding. You see, if I had said 'no' to George Clooney, you would have come up with Brad Pitt.
Then if I said 'no' to him, you would have come up with my husband. Had I then said 'yes,' you would have given me all three. Lord, I'm not in the best of health and would not be able to take care of all three husbands, so THAT'S why I said 'yes' to George Clooney.
And so the Lord let her keep him.
The moral of this story is: Whenever a woman lies, it's for a good and honorable reason, and in the best interest of others. That's our story, and we're sticking to it.
Signed,
All Us Women

Monday, December 31, 2007

Libra:

Libra:

Debating whether to call someone from your past to say Happy Holidays? Do it. Nothing wrong with spreading some cheer. .

Cable Company

If people want to complain about anything wrong about flow it should be that it shutting down alot or bad reception....other than that we the people have been getting three quarter of the channnels illegally since cable came to Trinidad so now that they can't do that no more they have to pay for licences and there is cost...I don't believe a new cable company could come and do the same as flow and charge less unless they want to run flow out of business and then jack up their prices...Direct tv is not any better and you have an ugly ass dish stuck on house like a big zit....So if you don't want it cancel it we have over six local channels available or just take the basic cable and one more thing we Trinidadians do know how to boycott we are very very weak minded
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Rachel JA (Trinidad and Tobago) wroteat 9:32pm
Flow is shit... a bunch of HBO and MAX channels, showin the same movies at different times. What happened to Starz and Showtime and even TMC? Maybe I should check out DirecTV. *shrugs*
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Jhonelle Joseph (Fort St. James Secondary School) wroteat 1:31pm
flow gay hoss
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Greg Harris (Trinidad and Tobago) wroteat 1:37am
Hey guys, I have really enjoyed reading evryones posts and I would love to have this group over at Yuwie. Yuwie is the most user friendly and comfortable place to socialize on the internet today. Plus you get payed. Don't get on unless you are going to give it a chance because if you give it a chance you will become addicted.http://r.yuwie.com/greg2008I hope to see you there.
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Alana H (Trinidad and Tobago) wroteat 11:56pm yesterday
PPl dont only complain but act as well.Take a stand against flow. I am also givin up cable for the new year and sticking to my dvds. Flow is rell shit.And on top of dat wanna raise cable...dey mad or wat
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Jason-Marc Labban (UWI St. Augustine) wroteat 10:46pm yesterday
dread...dem jus not worth it...i lost all meh fav channels now i have to put up with 5 different HBO and CineMAX with no friggin translation.Dread we need a new cable company.FLOW is shit!!!
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Nyesha Glasgow (Trinidad and Tobago) wroteat 7:27pm yesterday
o lord thanks to Flow thousands of trinis have cable woes. I glad i still have meh old cable box where it easy to change d channels and i could view the time. it is d worse when i want to change the channel when i'm by friends who have the new box.
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Steffan S. (Trinidad and Tobago) wroteat 5:17pm yesterday
the only thing good with flow is there internet honestly. dont know much about their new land line service .. but their poor cable service.. making me think about direct tv or sumn..up to today.. they blocked sports max because cnmg was showing the cricket.. but when the football start on sportsmax.. it was still blocked.. and also blocked on Fox soccer channel.. what the hell am i supposed to do then?
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Pete Joseph (Trinidad and Tobago) wroteat 12:10pm yesterday
Might I suggest that as an interim mesure, persons call the Regulated Industries Commission and state their view - 625-3655; 627-7820; 627-0503; 627-0821; 625-5384. I called!!
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Onika Edwards (Trinidad and Tobago) wroteat 11:20am yesterday
i got cable and movie channels we gotta pay for it, but with cable you get wireless internet and a phone connection, so the deal ent bad. but if you don't like the service from flow send it back. we does sit down and complain bout shit and do nothing....so what u gonna do now, you know the service sucks shit everything bout flow in a mess. so what u gonna do? 90% of the ppl her keeping the cable box in there house so what's the point...meh boy right you see more movies on dvds than the movie channels
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2007


2007.Many of us will either look back on the year fondly or with a sigh of relief that it is finally over.2007.The year that met us with new challenges, new experiences and new emotions.2007.Crime, fear, violence, frustration, sorrow, loss.2007.Love, warmth, fun, family, friends, prosperity.2007.However you spend the last 365 days, I sincerely wish that the next batch meets you with serenity, good health and pure love.2008.Wishes of a good one from me to you.

New Year

2007. Many of us will either look back on the year fondly or with a sigh of relief that it is finally over. 2007. The year that met us with new challenges, new experiences and new emotions.

A mind

A mind that, when touched by the ways of the world, remains steady, unstained, pure, sorrowless, and at peace... Everywhere undefeated when acting in this way, people course in well-being. Radiant Deva, This is a Supreme Blessing. -The Buddha

New Year

The Year is coming to an end, and another is starting, I am wishing all my reading a Happy New Year. I am hoping to starting back writing some people and interestin thing that has been going on in my life,,, Hmm u cant image the shit, There are been gd and bad.. The heart has been broken and put back 2gether, Love has come and gone and maybe back again.. But time will lell on that....

Talk/ Write Soon

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How SEXY is your name????

How SEXY is your name????
add the letters in your first name using the numbers below =)
And Write it at the bottom! And re-post it with
"H0W SEXY IS UR NAME"
*under 60 points= not too sexy
*from 61-300 points pretty sexxy
over 301-599 points VERY sexxxxy!!!
*beyond 600= beyond How SEXY is your name????

A=100 B=14 C=9 D=28 E=145 F=12 G=3 H=10 I=200 J=100 K=114 L=100 M= 25 N=450 O=80 P=2 Q=12 R=400 S=113 T=405 U=11 V=10 W=10 X=3 Y=210 Z=23

T - 405
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s- 113
h - 10
a - 100

Tisha = 828 very very very sexxxxxxxxxxxxy

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Merry Xmas

I am wishing u all a merry xmas of 2007. That u all have a gd day spending time with your family and friends.

Merry Xmas

Read this carefully

Boy: (cutting her off)
ugh i'm so mad Girl: why? what's wrong ?
Boy: ugh everything Girl:
explain baby Boy:
just lost a championship game, parents flipped out on me for no reason, and im catching a cold Girl:
well hey there will always be other games, you know it,take care of you when you're sick, what your parents flip about ? Boy:
they are making me pay them for a car repair Girl: is it a lot of money Boy: but hey i don't feel well im going to go lay down Boy:
bye Girl: wait i want to give you some... Boy:
can't it wait till tommorow ? Girl: yeah sure, bye Boy:
bye 2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes...her friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead her friend was killed instantly....she's in critical condition This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend Sister: omg ( crying ) Boy: what? whats wrong ? Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck Boy: is she ok ? ????? Sister: she's in critical condition Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something Girls mom: yeah this... it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick he opened it..... it said ..... "You're everything to me....i love you with everything i am and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you" sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to and the first picture they took together. he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture, it looked as if in the picture she was crying. then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead If you have any heart...any soul...or want to be happy you will repost this. if you care for someone ...do not let something like this ever happen Post this in the next 200 seconds and you WILL have THE best day of your life THIS SUNDAY. You're number one *love* Will either kiss you, ask you out, or call you or better. If you break this chain you will have a lousy day on Sunday, and you know you can send this to at least 15 people or more on your buddy list and your love will do one or the other!! DO NOT FORWARD!! COPY AND PASTE!!!

Saturday, December 22, 2007

A TRINI LETTER TO SANTA ( L O L )A Trini Letter To Santa Tuna Puna, Trinidad

>December 26, 2006 Dear Santa, know yah probly wonderin why I writin yuhon>BoxsingDay,but after opening meh presents and dem yesterday, I just hadto>write yuh. Santa ah was a real good gyul all year round, ah lissen tomeh>muddah when she talk to meh, ah help out with house wuk, ah even helpde>neighbour chilrren and dem do dey chaws too. Ah helped dat oldMr.George>across d road when d oddah chilrren just watch him and leave him dey.Santa>ah study hard in school dis year,so hard that ah come fuss in mehclass.>Santa when ah write meh Christmas List to yuh, ah axk yuh for a Barbie>princess doll, ah Barbie kitchen, ah Dora the Explorer computer game and>a monopoly.So Santa . . . how the fock after reading meh list you would>leave under d blasted Christmas tree ah shitty focking light up yo-yo,ah>mudderfocking plastic tea-set and ah focking no name dolly lookin likeshe>have polio. Santa is like yuh focking blind or yuh cyah read! Every yearah>say ah would stop believing in yuh focking ass and like ah fool ah does>always give yuh ah nex chance but not ah fock again. Yuh focking fat assdead>with me, yuh hear what ah say,yuh dead. Ah go wait for yuh muddahassnext>year, yuh better don't try to squeeze yuh fat bolockscious ass thru meh>louvers, because Santa ah swear ah go fock yuh up, it go be me , you anda>guava wood.Just imagine you give that little cokey eye, knock knee,>moddaacunt Laurel from across de road, she get everything that she axk>for,till she doh even have room to walk around she house. And Santa, yuhsee>you and dem focking raindeer and dem, all yah better tink twice boutlanding>on my house next year, especially dat focking Red noseprick Rudolph, ahgo>stone he muddacunt, yuh go have to walk back to d focking north polewhen>ah done with dem. I swear nex year, ah waiting patiently for yuh fat>focking ass to come Ho-Hoin' on meh galvanise roof. Ah go do fuh yuh,ah>promise, watch and see...

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS

Statistically speaking, unless you are a total hermit, social retard, or ugly as a bag of spoiled ass... There's at least 1 person on your myspace that wants to date you or sleep with you. So..... lets play "friends w/ benefits" The rules are simple... if you want to date the person who posted this, send them a message to their inbox, not a reply to this bulletin, saying "Im yours". If you just want to sleep with them and stay friends, send them a message that says "I'd hit it". SCARED? LOL THE TWIST IS YOU HAVE TO REPOST THIS, EVEN IF YOU'RE TAKEN & see who replies. There is at least 1 person on your myspace that wants to date you, and maybe more that want to sleep with you. SO... re-post as "Friends with Benefits", as it doesn't matter if your married, in a relationship,single, gay or straight! You opened it so you HAVE to repost it! A test of your bravery

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Every girl dreams

Every girl dreams that one day she will find a guy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life. • give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in. • leave her cute text notes. • kiss her in front of your friends. • tell her she looks beautiful. • look into her eyes when you talk to her. • let her mess with your hair. • touch her hair. • just walk around with her. • FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES. • look at her like she's the only girl you see. • tickle her even when she says stop. • hold her hand when you're around your friends. • be the one to take her hand, don't make her reach for you • be the one to call her, don't make her always call you • when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. • let her fall asleep in your arms. • get her mad, then kiss her. • tease her and let her tease you back. • stay up all night with her when she's sick. • watch her favorite movie with her. • kiss her forehead. • give her the world. • write her letters. • let her wear your clothes. • when she's sad, hang out with her. • let her know she's important. • let her take all the photos she wants of you. • kiss her in the pouring rain. • when you fall in love with her, tell her. • and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before. guys repost as : i'd do this for my girl. girls repost as : a perfect boyfriend if you don`t repost this in four minutes you will lose the one you love. if you do repost this in four minutes the one you love will : call you; kiss you;

Friday, December 14, 2007

Today's Humor!!!!

Gabriel came to the Lord and said, "Ah have to talk to you, yes...It have
some Trinis up here in Heaven who causing real problems.Dey swinging on
the Pearly Gates, meh horn missing, BBQ sauce and curry all over dey robe;
cow-heel, chicken foot and pigtail bone all over the streets of Gold.Some
ahdem walkin around with one wing saying is ah style. Dey late taking turn
keeping de stairway to Heaven clean, it have ah setta watermelon seed all
over the clouds and dem. Dey only playing ah setta soca an dub, some ah dem
protesting saying dat they entitled to public holidays and carnival. Some ah
dem ent wearing dey halos, saying "it doh fit with dey hairstyles"...The
Lord said, " I made them special, as I did you, my angel. Heaven is home to
all my children. If you really want to know about problems, let's call up
the Devil"
....The devil answered the phone, "Hello?Yes,Lord ........wha de...... hole
on a minute." The devil returned to the phone and said, " Yeah Lord, wha yuh
want?"The Lord replied, "Tell me what kinds of problems you are having down
there..."The devil said, "Ooohh... hold on... hold on" and put the Lord on
hold..After 5 minutes he returned to the phone, and said "Eh heh... what it
is yuh ask meh jus now?"The Lord said, "What kinds of problems are you
having down there?" The devil said, "Buh eh eh....look, hole orn...."This
time the devil was gone for 15 minutes..The devil returned and said, "Look
ah sorry eh, but I cyah talk to yuh right now nah...Trinis and dem put out
de fire again, and now dey installing air conditioning in meh place".

Only we cud upset the place EH!!!!!!!

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Love Poem

*A WOMAN'S LOVE POEM*
Before I lay me down to sleep,I pray for a man, who's not a creep,One who's handsome, smart and strong. One who loves to listen long,One who thinks before he speaks,One who'll call, not wait for weeks.I pray he's gainfully employed,When I spend his cash, won't be annoyed.Pulls out my chair and opens my door, Massages my back and begs to do more.Oh! Send me a man who'll make love to my mind, Knows what to answer to "how big is my behind?"I pray that this man will love me to no end, and always be my very best friend.
*A MAN'S LOVE POEM*
I pray for a deaf-mute nymphomaniac with huge boobs who owns a bar on a golf course, and loves to send me fishing and hunting. This doesn't rhyme and I don't give a shit.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

The mind

I Guess it helps that I'm dyslexic fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe can.i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it.

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS

"FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS
Statistically speaking, unless you are a total hermit, social retard, or ugly as a bag of spoiled ass...
There's at least 1 person on your myspace that wants to date you or sleep with you. So.....
lets play "friends w/ benefits"
The rules are simple...
if you want to date the person who posted this, send them a message to their inbox, not a reply to this bulletin, saying "Im yours".
If you just want to sleep with them and stay friends, send them a message that says "I'd hit it". SCARED?
LOL THE TWIST IS YOU HAVE TO REPOST THIS, EVEN IF YOU'RE TAKEN &
see who replies. There is at least 1 person on your myspace that wants to date you, and maybe more that want to sleep with you. SO... re-post as
"Friends with Benefits", as it doesn't matter if your married, in a relationship,single, gay or straight! You opened it so you HAVE to repost it!
A test of your bravery"

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Yours

YourHeartis UrLove,
Your loveis UrSpouse,
Your spouse is Ur Future,
Your future is Ur Destiny,
Your destiny is Ur Ambition,
Your ambition is UrAspiration,
Your aspiration is UrMotivation,
Your motivation is UrBelief,
Your belief is UrPeace, Your peace is UrTarget,
Your target is Heaven, Heaven is no fun withoutFRIENDS.
It's "World Best Friends Week"send this to all urgood friends.
Even me, if I am one of them.
See how many u get back.
If u gets more than 3 u r really a lovable person.............
I am waiting
F- Few
R- Relations
I – In
E – Earth
N – Never
D- Die

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

17 signs

17 signs you like someone this is how u know u like/love some1.

SEVENTEEN: You look at their profile constantly.
SIXTEEN: When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.
FIFTEEN: You read their Texts and Ims Over and over again.
FOURTEEN: You walk really slow when you're with them.
THIRTEEN: You feel shy whenever they're around.
ELEVEN: When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time.
TEN: You smile when you hear their voice.
NINE: When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.
EIGHT: You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.
SEVEN: They're all you think about.
SIX: You get high just from their scent.
FIVE: You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.
FOUR: You would do anything for them, just to see them.
THREE: While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.
TWO: You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number twelve was missing
ONE: You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

NOW MAKE A WISH. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO.......

Thursday, September 27, 2007

BEFORE MARRIAGE

He: Yes. At last. It was so hard to wait
.She: Do you want me to leave?
He: NO! Don't even think about it.
She: Do you love me?
He: Of course! Over and over!
She: Have you ever cheated on me?
He: NO! Why are you even asking?
She: Will you kiss me?
He: Every chance I get!
She: Will you hit me?
He: Are you crazy! I'm not that kind of person!
She: Can I trust you?
He: Yes
.She: Darling!
AFTER MARRIAGE:Read from bottom to top !

Thursday, September 20, 2007

You just have to laugh, what else?

A man went to the hospital to have his wedding ring cut off from hispenis. According to the Nurse attending, the patient's girl friend found the ring in his pants pocket and she got so mad at him, she used petroleum jelly to slip the ring on his penis while he was asleep.

I don't know what's worse?
1) Having your girl friend find out you're married!
2) Explaining to your wife how your wedding ring got on your penis!
3) Or finding out your penis fits through your wedding ring!!!
Why do people get themselves in such a mess?

Ha, Ha, Ha!!!

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Relationship

Are yuh in a relationship? Do things work out well all the time... of course not we are human and yes there are some times that things do not pan out, but here are a few tips that may help allyuh make much of each other....Yes, this post will repeat from time to time... just to remind allyuh that it takes two to make it work. Rules For Fair Fighting All couples fight. One major difference between happy couples that have been together for a long time and those that break up after a few months is that successful couples have learned how to "fight fair."Fighting fair means following guidelines that promote a safe and fair fight where both partners allow each other to express feelings and positions fully, and hear each other out, no matter how deep the disagreement. Follow these guidelines:
1. Be specific when you introduce a complaint. Confine yourself to one issue at a time.
2. Don't just complain. Ask for a reasonable change to help resolve the problem
3. Do not make the situation seem hopeless by overloading your partner with complaints.
4. Do not let counter-demands enter the picture until the original request is clearly understood and there has been a clear-cut response.
5. No cross-complaining. When the other person complains, don't answer with a complaint.
6. Do not be sarcastic or intolerant. Be open to your own feelings and equally open to your partner's.
7. Do not correct a partner's statement of his/her own feelings. Do not tell a partner what s/he should know or feel.
8. Never assume that you know what a partner is thinking until you have checked out the assumption in plain language. Do not predict how s/he will react.
9. Always be open to compromise. Your partner's view of reality may be as real as yours, even though you may differ.
10. Never make labeling statements, accusations or put-downs. Name calling, snide remarks, put-downs or negative facial expressions are unacceptable, unproductive and damaging to your relationship.
11. Forget the past and stay in the here and now. Don't use "always," "never" or "should." What happened last month is not as important as what you are feeling now.
12. Don't interrupt. Let the other person finish before you speak.
13. No physical violence allowed. This is a firm guideline for fair fighting.
14. Time out is okay. If things get too heated, ask to continue the discussion at another time. Specify the time.
15. Remember, there is never a single winner in an honest and intimate disagreement. Both partners either win more intimacy or lose it.

Friday, August 31, 2007

Statement of the Day

Fool Me1 Shame On U .Fool Me Twice Shame On Me

Monday, August 27, 2007

u hurt me before

You hurt me before, and you did it again.
I keep takin' you back,
you keep pullin me in,
Makin' me cry, wasn't part of the deal
I wouldn't have said 'okay' if I'd known how I'd feel.
"Things won't be different, I'll hold you all the same.
" That didn't last I'm sick of your game!
My heart's tied in a knot, all fixed on you.
Forgivin' you for everything, pullin' you through.
You don't respect my feelings, you call 'em crazy.
Seems to me girl, you be seein' hazy.

*jus friends*

i dont kno if my heart can take *jus friends* i love you too much to be *jus friends* but i care about you too much to just let you go...what do i do when i can quit lovin you and u still run through my mind all day n night...you mean the world to me if only you would see but it doesnt matter you love her but then i think if you love her so much why do you still talk to me...why are we still on the fone till we go to sleep...why does it feel like nothing has changed...why...my head iz hurtin from all these questions...questions i cant find the answer to so maybe you can help me...help me figure out whats going on cuz im confused...i dont wanna let you go but my heart cant b *jus friends

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Do U believe in GENIES

A Husband takes his wife to play her first game of golf.
Of course, the wife promptly hacked her first shotright through the window of the biggest house adjacent to the course.
The husband cringed, "I warned you to be careful!Now we'll have to apologize and see how much your lousy drive is going to costus."So the couple walked up to the house and knocked on thedoor.A warm voice said, "Come on in." When theyopened the door they saw the damage that was done: glass was all over theplace, and a broken antique bottle was lying on its side near the brokenwindow. A man reclining on the couch asked, "Are you thepeople that broke my window?""Uh...yeah, sir. We're sure sorry aboutthat," the husband replied."Oh, no apology is necessary. Actually I want tothank you. You see, I'm a genie, and I've been trapped in that bottle for athousand years. Now that you've released me, I'm allowed to grant three wishes.I'll give you each one wish, but if you don't mind, I'll keep the last one formyself." "Wow, that's great!" the husband said. Hepondered a moment and blurted out, "I'd like a million dollars a year forthe rest of my life." "No problem," said the genie. "You'vegot it, it's the least I can do. And I'll guarantee you a long, healthylife!""And now you, young lady, what do you want?"the genie asked. "I'd like to own a gorgeous home complete with servantsin every country in the world," she said. "Consider it done," the genie said. "And your homes will alwaysbe safe from fire,burglary and natural disasters!""And now," the couple asked in unison,"what's your wish, genie?"" Well, since I've been trapped in that bottle andhaven't been with a woman in more than a thousand years, my wish is to sleepwith your wife."The husband looked at his wife and said, "Gee,honey, you know we both now have a fortune, and all those houses. What do youthink?"She mulled it over for a few moments and said,"You know, you're right. Considering our good fortune, I guess I wouldn'tmind, but what about you, honey?" "You know I love you sweetheart," said the husband."I'd do the same for you!" So the genie andthe woman went upstairs where they spent the rest of the afternoon enjoyingeach other. The genie was insatiable. After about three hours of non-stop fun, the genie rolled over and lookeddirectly into her eyes and asked, "How old are you and your husband?""Why, we're both 35," she respondedbreathlessly."Really?! Thirty-five years old and both of youstill believe in genies?"

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Why People Have Sex: 237 Reasons

Love, Lust, Revenge -- Researchers' List Goes On and On
By Miranda Hitti WebMD Medical News
Reviewed by Louise Chang, MD
Aug. 1, 2007 -- Why do people have sex? A new study counts the ways and comes up with 237 reasons.
The reasons range from the sublime to the scandalous. Some motivations came from the heart. Others came from elsewhere in the anatomy.
The leading reason for sex was, "I was attracted to the person," according to the study, which appears in the August issue of the Archives of Sexual Behavior.
The study comes from Cindy Meston, PhD, and David Buss, PhD, of the psychology department at the University of Texas at Austin.
First, they asked 203 men and 241 women aged 17-52 in Austin, Texas, to anonymously list every reason they had ever had sex. Those men and women were taking psychology classes or were participating in other studies at the Sexual Psychophysiology Laboratory of the University of Texas.
All in all, participants listed 715 reasons for having sex. The researchers deleted repetitions, boiling the list down to 237 reasons.
Next, Meston and Buss presented the list to 1,549 psychology students and asked them to rate how often, if ever, they had had sex for each of the 237 reasons.

9 Leading Reasons for Having Sex
The researchers identified nine broad themes that characterize the students' top reasons for having sex:
Pure attraction to the other person in general
Experiencing physical pleasure
Expressing love
Having sex because of feeling desired by the other
Having sex to escalate the depth of the relationship
Curiosity or seeking new experiences
Marking a special occasion for celebration
Mere opportunity
Sex just happening due to seemingly uncontrollable circumstances
The study also highlights five general themes that were least frequently cited by the students.
Those themes included wanting to harm another person (their partner, rival, or a stranger), getting resources (such as a job, money, drugs, or gifts), enhancing social status, using sex as a means to a seemingly unrelated end (such as relieving a headache), or having sex out of duty or pressure.
Top 10 Reasons Why Women Have Sex
The researchers broke down the leading reasons why men and women have sex. Eight of the top 10 reasons were shared by men and women.
Here are women's top 10 reasons for having sex:
I was attracted to the person.
I wanted to experience the physical pleasure.
It feels good.
I wanted to show my affection to the person.
I wanted to express my love for the person.
I was sexually aroused and wanted the release.
I was "horny."
It's fun.
I realized I was in love.
I was "in the heat of the moment."

Top 10 Reasons Why Men Have Sex
In the study, men's top 10 reasons for having sex are quite similar to the women's list. Here are men's top 10 reasons for having sex, according to the study:
I was attracted to the person.
It feels good.
I wanted to experience the physical pleasure.
It's fun.
I wanted to show my affection to the person.
I was sexually aroused and wanted the release.
I was "horny."
I wanted to express my love for the person.
I wanted to achieve an orgasm.
I wanted to please my partner.

Why do you have sex? Share your reasons on WebMD's Sexuality: Friends Talking message board.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Things to do in a lift when bored

1. When there..s only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder and then pretend it wasn..t you.
2. Push the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back for more.
3. Ask if you can push the button for other people, but push the wrong ones.
4. Call the Psychic Hotline from your cell phone and ask if they know what floor you’re on.
5. Hold the doors open and say you’re waiting for a friend. After a while, let the doors close, and say, "Hi Greg. How..s your day been?"
6. Drop a pen and wait until someone goes to pick it up, then scream, "That..s Mine!"
7. Bring a camera and take pictures of everyone in the elevator.
8. Move your desk into the elevator and whenever anyone gets on ask if they have an appointment.
9. Lay down the twister mat and ask people if they would like to play.
10. Leave a box in the corner, and when someone gets on, ask them if they can hear ti cking.
11. Pretend you are a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the passengers.
12. Ask, "Did you feel that?"
13. Stand really close to someone, sniffing them occasionally.
14. When the doors close, announce to the others, "It..s okay, don..t panic, they open again!"
15. Swat at flies that don..t exist.
16. Tell people that you can see their aura.
17. Call out, "Group Hug!" and then enforce it.
18. Grimace painfully while smacking your forehead and muttering, "Shut up, all of you just shut up!"
19. Crack open your briefcase or purse, and while peering inside, ask, "Got enough air in there?"
20. Stand silently and motionless in the corner, facing the wall, without getting off.
21. Stare at another passenger for a while, then announce in horror, "Your One of THEM!" and back away slowly.
22. Wear a puppet on your hand and use it to talk to the other passengers.
23. L isten to the elevator walls with your stethoscope
.24. Make explosion noises when anyone presses a button.
25. Stare, grinning at another passenger for a while, then announce, "I have new socks on".
26. Draw a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers, "This is MY personal space!"

Trindad and Tobago Area Code

Trinidad and Tobago area code is 868.

International Dail 1 868 den no

Caribbean Dail 868

Never-Know-When- You-Might- Need-Them Phone Numbers

AIDS Hotline ............ ......... ......... ......... 800-4HIV/625- 2437
AIDS Hotline (South) ............ ......... ......... ..652-AIDS/ 652-2437
Autistic Society of Trinidad & Tobago ............ .. 663-8397
Alcoholics Anonymous (North) ............ ......... .. 662-4829/667- 3155640-6305/665- 1251
(South) ............ ......... .. 758-2844/677- 6856(Tobago) ............ ......... .. 639-9121/660- 5668
CHILDLINE ............ ......... ......... ......... ... 800-4321
Crime Stoppers ............ ......... ......... ....... 800-TIPS
Domestic Violence Hotline ............ ......... ..... 800-SAVE (7283)
Families In Action ............ ......... ......... ... 628-2333/622- 6952
Emergency Ambulance Response ............ ......... .. 990
Emergency Fire Response ............ ......... ....... 990
Emergency Health Service - South Trinidad .......... 653-4343
Emergency Health Service - Tobago ............ ...... 653-4444
FEEL ............ ......... ......... ......... ........ 624-7758
HEAL Drug Rehab Centre (Couva) ............ ......... 679-2616
Lifeline Hotline ............ ......... ......... ..... 645-2800
Mamatoto Resource and Birth Centre ............ ..... 621-2368
NEMA ............ ......... ......... ......... ........ 640-8653/623- 8004
Rape Crisis Society (POS) ............ ......... ..... 622-7273(S'Fdo) ............ ......... ..... 657-5355
Rapid Response ............ ......... ......... ....... 999
Rebirth House Drug Rehab Centre (POS) ............ .. 623-0952
The Informative Breastfeeding Service (TIBS)...... .. 628-8234
The Shelter ............ ......... ......... ......... . 628 0861
T&T Cancer Society ............ ......... ......... ... 800-TTCS (8827)
T&T Coalition Against Domestic Violence.... ......... 624-0402
T&T Coast Guard ............ ......... ......... ...... 634-4439/40
T&T Reading Association ............ ......... ....... 626-6722
T&T Red Cross Society ............ ......... ......... 627-8215
T&T Red Cross Society (South Branch) ............ ... 652-2024
Workingwomen Drop in Centre ............ ......... ... 663-7449
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Thursday, August 09, 2007

~EIGHT LIES OF A MOTHER

1. The story began when I was a child; I was born as a son to a poor family. Even during meals, we often had a lack of food. Whenever during meals, mother often gave me her portion of rice. While she was removing her rice into my bowl, she would say "Eat this rice, son. I'm not hungry". That was Mother's First Lie
2. When I was growing up, the persevering mother gave her spare time for fishing in a river near our house, she hoped that from the fishes she had caught, she could gave me a little bit of nutritious food for my growth. After fishing, she would cook the fishes to make fresh fish soups, which raised my appetite. While I was drinking the soup, mother would sit beside me and eat the remaining flesh of the fish, which were still on the bones of the fish which I ate. My heart was touched when I saw it. I then gave the other fish to her. But she immediately refused it and said "Eat this fish, son. I don't really like fish." That was Mother's Second Lie.
3. Then, when I was in Junior High School, to fund my study, mother went to a company to bring home some match boxes to sell them for some income. It gave her some money to cover our daily needs. As the winter came, I woke up from my sleep and saw my mother who was still awoke, supported by a little candlelight and within her perseverance she continued the work of making some match boxes. I said, "Mother, go to sleep, it's late. T omorrow morning you still have to go to work. Mother smiled and said "Go to sleep, dear. I'm not tired." That was Mother's Third Lie.
4. Then came the final term exam. Mother applied for leave from her work in order to accompany me. As the morning disappeared and the rays of the sun was starting to shine, the strong and persevering mother waited for me under the heat of the sun for several hours. As the bell rang, which indicated that the final exam had finished, mother immediately welcomed me and poured me a glass of tea that she had prepared before. The very thick tea was not as thick as my mother's love, which was much thicker. Seeing my mother covering with perspiration, I at once gave her my glass and asked her to drink too. Mother said "Drink, son. I'm not thirsty!". That was Mother's Fourth Lie.
5. After the death of my father due to an illness, my poor mother had to play her role as a single parent. By holding on to her former job, she had to fund our daily needs alone. Our family life became more complicated. No days without sufferings. Seeing our family's condition getting worse, there was a nice uncle who lived nearby came to help us, in some big and a small ways. Our neighbours saw that our family's life was so unfortunate, they often advised my mother to marry again. But mother, who was stubborn, didn't heed their advice, she said "I don't need love." That was Mother's Fifth Lie.
6. After I had finished my study and got a job, it was time for my old mother to retire. But she didn't want to; she continued to go to the marketplace every morning, just to sell some vegetables to fulfill her needs. I was working in the another city, often sent her some money to help her in fulfilling her needs, but she was stubborn and did not accept the money. She even sent the money back to me. She said "I have enough money." That was Mother's Sixth Lie.
7. After graduation with a Bachelor's Degree, I continued my studies to get the Masters. I got the degree, which was funded by a company through a scholarship program, from a famous University in America. I finally worked in that company. With quite a high salary, I intended to take my mother for a holiday in America. But my lovely mother didn't want to bother her son, she said to me, "I'm not used to travelling." That was Mother's Seventh Lie.
8. After entering her old age, mother got a flank cancer and had to be hospitalized. I, who lived in miles away and across the ocean, directly came home to visit my dearest mother. She lied down in weakness on her bed after having an operation. Mother, who looked so old, was staring at me in deep yearning. She tried to spread her smile on her face; yet it looked so stiff because of the disease she was holding out. It was clear enough to see how the disease broke my mother's body, but not her spirit and love..thus she looked so weak and thin. I stared at my mother with tears flowing.. My heart was hurt, so hurt, seeing my mother in that condition. But mother, with her strength, said "Don't cry, my dear. I'm not in pain." That was Mother's Eight Lie. After saying her eighth lie, She closed her eyes forever!

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Heads up,guys and gals (all pun intended)

People may catch HIV though oral sex with infected partner
06.08.2007
Researchers have determined how people can catch HIV that causes AIDS though oral sex with infected partners. As it turned out, there may be no injuries inside of the mouth but a partner may still catch the virus while having oral sex. After twenty five years of an extensive research American doctors have determined that humans have a molecule that comes in contact with the virus.

Up to now many doctors doubted that their HIV-infected patients were honest when said that they had no unsafe sexual contacts. Doctors believed that their infected patients, and especially men, would not confess that they had oral sex with other infected partners. El Pais reports that researchers have discovered a special molecule in the tonsil cells, and the discovery has dispelled doctors' bias as concerning the problem.

It was traditionally believed that only people with seriously injured gums could catch HIV when having oral sex with infected partners. However, the fact was not quite agreeable for all especially when it was determined that human saliva has a strong antiviral action. People will not catch HIV if use the same glasses or forks that infected people have previously used, or even if they kiss infected partners. People and many animals instinctively lick their wounds to have primary disinfection thanks to the antiviral action of their saliva.

The recent discovery gives a reasonable explanation of HIV transmission. Researchers from the US National Institute of Health say that tonsils have the CXCR4 receptor on their surface that helps the virus contact infected cells and communicates its genetic material to a human organism.

The molecule has been among the first molecules tested in a new therapy for treating the infection. The gum surface is covered with different type molecules called keratins that perform a barrier function and make gum walls thicker. The results of the research were published in American Journal of Pathology.

The discovery has become another opportunity for experts to emphasize that people must use condoms not only for vaginal or anal sex contacts but also for oral sex.

Source: El Pais
Translated by Maria GousevaPravda.ru

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Sunday, August 05, 2007

Four Friends

Four friends, who hadn't seen each other in 30 years, reunitedat a party. After several drinks, one of the men had to usethe rest room.Those who remained talked about their kids. The first guysaid, "My son is my pride and joy. He started working at asuccessful company at the bottom of the barrel. He studied Economics and Business Administration and soon began to climb the corporate ladder and now he's the president of the company. He became so rich hegave his best friend a top of the line Mercedes for his birthday."The second guy said, "Darn, that's terrific! My son is also mypride and joy. He started working for a big airline,and then went to flight school to become a pilot. Eventually he became apartner in the company, where he owns the majority of its assets. He's so rich he gave his best friend a brand new jet for his birthday."The third man said: "Well, that's terrific!? My son studied inthe best universities and became an engineer. Then he startedhis own construction company and is now a multimillionaire. Healso gave away something very nice and expensive to his best friend for his birthday: A 30,000 square foot mansion."The three friends congratulated each other just as the fourthreturned from the restroom and asked: "What are all thecongratulations for?"One of the three said: "We were talking about the pride wefeel for the successes of our sons. What about your son?"The fourth man replied: "My son is Gay and makes a livingdancing as a stripper at a nightclub."The three friends said: "What a shame...what a disappointment. ."The fourth man replied: "No, I'm not ashamed? He's my son andI love him? And he hasn't done too bad either. His birthday was two weeks ago, and he received a beautiful 30,000 square foot mansion, a brand new jet and a top of the line Mercedes from his three boyfriends."

Monday, July 30, 2007

Cost of a party

It is all well and good that we sit back and say that gay party promoters make a killing by hosting gay events. I can only speak for my group, and I know that quite a lot of fingers will be pointed and issues raised by this question, however considering that most parties cost anywhere from $12,000 to $20,000 depending on the venue and other logistics, it is safe to say that 75% of gay parties held in Trinidad and Tobago and moderately , if not profitable.
In addition, it is becoming increasingly more expensive to host said parties, as over the years venue owners have come up with the same assumption that we are now discussing. Venues which we paid $3000 for last years are now $5000. There is one particular venue which the rent went from $1800 to $5800 in the space of 18 months, with no renevations done on the space.
As for D'Sistahood, I think that it is safe to say that our work speaks for it self in terms of HIV education and awareness. But at the end of the day, it is a business and honestly no one has the right to dictate what is done with the profits derived from said business. Does anyone ask the owners of Zen and other clubs (that many gay people frequent) what they do with their profits or more so what they do for the gay community? Yes one can say that a business has a responsibility to the community that it operates in, but at the end on the day it is based upon the discretion of the business owner, to give back if he or she so desires.
Just to give you an idea of what a party budget looks like

Venue: $6000(Average)
Sound System/DJ & Lighting $3000
Invitation Artwork & Printing $1000
Security (all Aspects) $2000 (Average)
Decor $1000
Staff $1000

Total $14,000
This total does not reflect the additional cost of promotion and marketing, which include access to venues and events and the countless man hours spent distributing invitation, sending tex messages and emails or general promotion, and the number of additional tit bits that promoters do for their patrons (complimentary drinks etc). In addition if you have to get , COTT($750 for small parties), EMA Sound Variation ($500) or God help a bar license ($450) plus the cost of minimum, 3 police and fire officers each that is mandatory with the issue of each bar license, which can average to about and additional $2000.
So lets do a lil math, if you divide the total cost by your ticket price which ia average $75
$14,000 / $75 =187
That 187 reflects the number of people you must have in your party to cover your expenses or break even. Now considering that the average party (with exceptions) has about 250 people , if you are lucky you can walk away with a $5000 profit. An considering all those little items that are not really checked, how much of a profit is that really.
So the next question is why do we do it?
If we don't, will you take the risk of putting out your hard earned dollars with out the guarantee of a return? If we don't will you be able to go to 51, 601 or Zen and dance with your boyfriend or girlfriend?
I can go on and on, but lets stop deluding ourselves that gay party promoters make enough profit to make any significant contribution to the areas in question. The onus is upon each one of us to be responsible in our actions and practice safe sex, and put the proper fail safes in place should anything happen to us.

Regards
D'Sistahood

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Victim of ‘public ridicule’ speaks out

Kennty Mitchell
BY SASCHA WILSON
At 29 YEARS, Kennty Mitchell seems to have everything going for him.
He is a striving entrepreneur, a community activist and is involved in a nine-year “common-law” relationship.
Yet, he is put down by society and verbally and physically abused by many, including the police.
Why? He is homosexual.
Mitchell, however, is determined to keep his head up and refuses to be forced into living his life in secrecy and shame.
He has always been open about his sexuality, and now he has decided to speak out publicly.
Mitchell was recently victorious in the High Court where he was awarded damages for being ridiculed by officers at the Princes Town Police Station.
He was stripped naked, laughed at and left in a filthy cell for over three hours.
Mitchell says he’s fed up with being ridiculed and discriminated against, and is calling on the Government to ensure gay people have equal rights.
“Gay people are people too, they are citizens of T&T and they make a valuable contribution to the country...They should not be treated as though they don’t belong or have no rights,” he argued.
Mitchell, of Ritchie Street, Ste Madeleine, owns a DVD club. He is also a maxi taxi driver, a pawnbroker and a moneylender.
His significant other (as he describes him) is a registered teacher, but does not work at any school.
Mitchell says being gay is not a choice people make.
“Somebody doesn’t just wake up one day and decide they want to be gay. There are over 300,000 gay people in T&T. But, they are afraid to come out. A lot of them are in influential positions in society,” he said.
Many homosexual people, he added, come together at gay parties in various clubs.
“There are gay people working in government buildings, Parliament, hospitals, hotels, schools...you can find them anywhere but they are in hiding,” he said.
In his way of marking Gay Pride month (July), Mitchell said he was speaking out for all the gay people without a voice.
“What we find disturbing is that in this country human rights are not properly observed,” he said.
“The vagrant on the streets is protected from discrimination, the HIV-infected person in protected, but people based on their sexual orientation have no rights.”
Referring to the Equal Opportunity Act of 2000, he said the law had been passed to protect people from discrimination but it allows people to discriminate on the basis of sexual orientation.
He said the Immigration Act bans gay men and women from entering the country.
“When (British singer) Elton John came here, he had to get a special licence,” he said.
“The Human Rights Committee and Amnesty International appealed to Government to amend the laws to include protection for homosexuals and lesbians in this country, but they have refused.
“Some people are afraid that if they have rights then every male person might become a homosexual but that is not true.”
Calling for the Act to be amended to include rights for gay people, he said: “The hate for gay people is worsening and if something is not done soon to protect gay persons, they will soon be denied basic things such as healthcare, employment and entry into certain places.”
Mitchell said they had taken a decision to vote only for a political party that would revise the bill and give gay people rights.
“We might not be able to tip the scale in the next election because we are a minority,” he said.
“But we belong to a family, we have friends and they all support us so it will be more than just the gay votes,” he said.
Thanking attorney Haresh Ramnath and Kevin Ratiram for his court victory, he said while he was pleased that he won he intends to appeal the $28,400 he was awarded.
“That only compensated me for being locked up but not for the humiliation that I went through,” he said. He added that he went through six months of therapy to help him get over that terrifying and embarrassing ordeal

Monday, July 23, 2007

Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two

Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two
1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you..
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart..
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don'twaste your time on a man / woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON. True friends:
How many people actually have 8 true friends?
Hardly anyone I know! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!!

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Gay man taunted by cops gets $28,400

A 29-year-old self-confessed homosexual has been awarded $28,400 as compensation for being kept naked at a police station for over three hours while police officers ridiculed him about the size of his penis.
Judgment on behalf of the Ste Madeleine man was delivered in the San Fernando High Court yesterday by Justice Shafeyei Shah who ruled that the man's arrest on July 24, 2000 was unlawful.
The man said he and his "partner" were walking past the Princes Town Police Station around 4.30 p.m. on July 24, 2000, when two men, who later identified themselves as CID police officers, called out to him and told him to come.
"They did not give their names. Upon reaching the station's door, I was told by one of the officers that there is an officer in the station who wanted to see me.
"I entered the station and, upon reaching the area of the charge room, another male voice directed me to enter a room located to the side of the charge room."
The man said he met a police officer sitting behind a desk and was invited to sit.
"I later discovered this officer's name to be Police Constable (Curt) Teesdale. After waiting for approximately 25 minutes, I asked PC Teesdale what he wanted to see me for. He did not answer. I repeated this question about five times. I received no reply."
The man said he told Teesdale that he was leaving and attempted to leave but was followed out of the room and arrested.
The court heard that the man was led to an area where there were cells and was ordered by Teesdale to remove his clothing in the presence of another officer identified only as "a slim, light-brown officer of East Indian origin dressed in police uniform".
"I attempted to hide my nudity with my hands. I was then told by PC Teesdale to move my hands from in front of me. I removed my hands. They both looked at me and started to laugh very loud.
"They ridiculed me. PC Teesdale then said to me, 'you playing man and that small cuckoo you have' referring to the size of my penis."
The man said he was made to squat while facing the officers and was in full view of anyone passing in the corridor.
"Due to my size, I tire easily. When I became tired, I sat on a cold concrete slab. I remained in the cell from approximately 5.10 p.m. to around 8.30p.m."
The man said he was taken out of the cell and told that he was free to leave. He said he was told by the officers, who were trying to make jokes and small talk, that he was being held for an ID parade.

Monday, July 02, 2007

can u read

""fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too. Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can. i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it.""

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Trinidad Express

Gay or go club?

Tuesday, June 26th 2007

Are there exclusively gay clubs in T&T? A friend of mine went to a fairly new club in Central last Friday and was told that since he's straight he had to leave or there would be violence. The poor guy was quaking in his shoes so he left.
I really need to find out if straight people are barred from these gay clubs. If so, then they should be clearly identified so that the unsuspecting clubber doesn't find himself or herself in a compromising position.
Straight T&T citizen
Chaguanas

Friday, June 22, 2007

The Science of Gaydar

If sexual orientation is biological, are the traits that make people seem gay innate, too? The new research on everything from voice pitch to hair whorl.
By David France
EXAMPLE A: Hair Whorl (Men) Gay men are more likely than straight men to have a counterclockwise whorl. Photographs by Mark Mahaney
As a presence in the world—a body hanging from a subway strap or pressed into an elevator, a figure crossing the street—I am neither markedly masculine nor notably effeminate. Nor am I typically perceived as androgynous, not in my uniform of Diesels and boots, not even when I was younger and favored dangling earrings and bright Jack Purcells. But most people immediately read me (correctly) as gay. It takes only a glance to make my truth obvious. I know this from strangers who find gay people offensive enough to elicit a remark—catcalls from cab windows, to use a recent example—as well as from countless casual social engagements in which people easily assume my orientation, no sensitive gaydar necessary. I’m not so much out-of-the-closet as “self-evident,” to use Quentin Crisp’s phrase, although being of a younger generation, I can’t subscribe to his belief that it is a kind of disfigurement requiring lavender hair rinse.
I once placed a personal ad in which I described myself as “gay-acting/gay-appearing,” partly as a jab at my peers who prefer to be thought of as “str8” but mostly because it’s just who I am. Maybe a better way to phrase it would have been “third-sexer,” the category advanced by the gay German sexologist Magnus Hirschfeld 100 years ago. The label fell into disrepute, but lately a number of well-known researchers in the field of sexual orientation have been reviving it based on an extensive new body of research showing that most of us, whether top or bottom, butch or femme, or somewhere in between, share a kind of physical otherness that locates us in our own quadrant of the gender matrix, more like one another than not. Whatever that otherness is seems to come from somewhere deep within us. It mostly defies our efforts to disguise it. That’s what we mean by gaydar—not the skill of the viewer so much as the telltale signs most gay people project, the set of traits that make us unmistakably one.
The late psychologist and sexologist John Money famously called these the details of our “gendermaps,” which he believed are drawn primarily by life’s experience and social conditioning. Money planted some of the earliest flags in the nature-versus-nurture war by claiming that dysfunctional parents, not inborn biology, is what produced “sissy boys,” tomboys, and other gender variants. But today, the pendulum has swung just about as far in the other direction as possible. A small constellation of researchers is specifically analyzing the traits and characteristics that, though more pronounced in some than in others, not only make us gay but also make us appear gay.
At first read, their findings seem like a string of unlinked, esoteric observations. Statistically, for instance, gay men and lesbians have about a 50 percent greater chance of being left-handed or ambidextrous than straight men or women. The relative lengths of our fingers offer another hint: The index fingers of most straight men are shorter than their ring fingers, while for most women they are closer in length, or even reversed in ratio. But some researchers have noted that gay men are likely to have finger-length ratios more in line with those of straight women, and a study of self-described “butch” lesbians showed significantly masculinized ratios. The same goes for the way we hear, the way we process spatial reasoning, and even the ring of our voices. One study, involving tape-recordings of gay and straight men, found that 75 percent of gay men sounded gay to a general audience. It’s unclear what the listeners responded to, whether there is a recognized gay “accent” or vocal quality. And there is no hint as to whether this idiosyncrasy is owed to biology or cultural influences—only that it’s unmistakable. What is there in Rufus Wainwright’s “uninhibited, yearning, ugly-duckling voice,” as the Los Angeles Times wrote a few weeks ago, that we recognize as uniquely gay? Does biology account for Rosie O’Donnell’s crisp trumpet and Charles Nelson Reilly’s gnyuck-gnyuck-gnyuck?
“These are all part and parcel of the idea that being gay is different—that we are different animals to some extent,” says Simon LeVay, the British-born neuroscientist who has dedicated himself to studying these issues. “Hirschfeld was right. I support the idea that we’re a third sex—or a third sex and a fourth sex, gay men and lesbians. Today, there’s scientific documentation behind this.”
Richard Lippa, a psychologist from California State University at Fullerton, is one of the leading cataloguers of the many ways in which gay people are different. I caught up with him a few weeks ago at a booth at the Long Beach Pride Festival in Southern California, where he was researching another hypothesis—that the hair-whorl patterns on gay heads are more likely to go counterclockwise. If true, it will be one more clue to our biological uniqueness.

Arrests at Jerusalem gay parade

A Gay Pride march in Jerusalem has taken place amid tight security, sparking fierce protests among the holy city's religious communities.
An ultra-Orthodox Jewish man was arrested for planning to bomb the parade, Israeli police said.
At least 18 other people were arrested during the march, which came after Israel's High Court rejected an appeal by religious groups to ban it.
More than 7,000 police were deployed to secure the parade to prevent clashes.
Israeli police spokesman Micky Rosenfeld said officers found an explosive device in the bag of the alleged bomb plotter.
"He admitted he planned on planting it on the route of the parade today," Mr Rosenfeld said.
At least 15 people were arrested for throwing stones at police on Wednesday night after the court appeal was rejected.
Parade protests
About 2,000 people joined the march, holding bright balloons, singing and holding posters of Nelson Mandela and the Dalai Lama, the Associated Press news agency reported.
I will be not be shut down by anyone - Jerusalem is the place where we should parade
Adam RussoGay activist
March organisers said they were expecting 5,000 people to attend.
"We are thrilled to be here today, celebrating our freedom of speech in the centre of Jerusalem," Noa Satat, chairwoman of gay-rights group Open House, told Reuters news agency.
Several hundred ultra-Orthodox Jews held protests against the parade at the entrance to the city, setting rubbish bins on fire and waving banners that said "Shame".
The community has protested repeatedly against the march in the past week, burning tyres, confronting police and damaging police cars.
More than 1,000 firefighters went on strike last week, refusing to grant a licence to the parade's organisers, forcing them to cancel a rally at the end of the march.

A larger event in Tel Aviv passed off peacefully earlier this month
The event, held in Jerusalem since 2001, has been denounced in the past by conservative Jewish, Christian and Muslim groups which share a view that homosexuality is an abomination.
But civil liberties groups argue that it celebrates diversity in the holy city.
"The question of 'why in Jerusalem' is not a question. It is the same question as letting women vote," said Dana Olmert, herself a lesbian and daughter of Israeli Prime Minister Ehud Olmert, in an interview with Israel's Army radio.
Last year, it was relocated to a sports stadium because of security concerns.
In 2005, an ultra-Orthodox Jewish protester stabbed and wounded three people despite a heavy police presence at the event.
Gay activist Adam Russo, who was one of those stabbed two years ago, told the BBC that homosexuals had the right to march through the city.
"We are all frightened but I'm here because of my right to protest," he said. "I will be not be shut down by anyone. Jerusalem is the place where we should parade."
Israel's largest annual Gay Pride parade held in the mainly secular city of Tel Aviv passed off peacefully earlier this month. About 20,000 people attended the event.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Love

""What every kiss means
:b ~Kiss on the stomach = I'm ready
~Kiss on the Forehead = I hope we're together forever
~Kiss on the Ear = Your my everything ~
Kiss on the Cheek = You look so cute ~
Kiss on the Hand = I adore you ~
Kiss on the Neck = We belong together ~
Kiss on the Shoulder = I want you ~
Kiss on the Lips = I love you

What the gesture means...
~Holding Hands = We definitely like each other
~Slap on the butt = That's mine
~Holding on tight = I don't want to let go
~Looking into each other's Eyes = I just plain love you ~
Playing with Hair = Tell me you love me ~
Arms around the Waist = I love you too much to let go
~Laughing while Kissing = I am completely comfortable with you

***Advice*** *Dont ask for a kiss, take one.
* **If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in Love.
** **Requirements** *Post this again after reading!!!


Or you will have a bad year of Relationships. *****If you LIKE, LOVE, OR MISS someone right now and can't get them out of your head then Re-post this within One Minute and Whoever you are missing will surprise you!!!

Friday, June 01, 2007

Fighting Fairly In A Relationship

Are yuh in a relationship? Do things work out well all the time... of course not we are human and yes there are some times that things do not pan out, but here are a few tips that may help allyuh make much of each other....Yes, this post will repeat from time to time... just to remind allyuh that it takes two to make it work. Rules For Fair Fighting All couples fight. One major difference between happy couples that have been together for a long time and those that break up after a few months is that successful couples have learned how to "fight fair."Fighting fair means following guidelines that promote a safe and fair fight where both partners allow each other to express feelings and positions fully, and hear each other out, no matter how deep the disagreement. Follow these guidelines:
1. Be specific when you introduce a complaint. Confine yourself to one issue at a time.
2. Don't just complain. Ask for a reasonable change to help resolve the problem
3. Do not make the situation seem hopeless by overloading your partner with complaints.
4. Do not let counter-demands enter the picture until the original request is clearly understood and there has been a clear-cut response.
5. No cross-complaining. When the other person complains, don't answer with a complaint.
6. Do not be sarcastic or intolerant. Be open to your own feelings and equally open to your partner's.
7. Do not correct a partner's statement of his/her own feelings. Do not tell a partner what s/he should know or feel.
8. Never assume that you know what a partner is thinking until you have checked out the assumption in plain language. Do not predict how s/he will react.
9. Always be open to compromise. Your partner's view of reality may be as real as yours, even though you may differ.
10. Never make labeling statements, accusations or put-downs. Name calling, snide remarks, put-downs or negative facial expressions are unacceptable, unproductive and damaging to your relationship.
11. Forget the past and stay in the here and now. Don't use "always," "never" or "should." What happened last month is not as important as what you are feeling now.
12. Don't interrupt. Let the other person finish before you speak.
13. No physical violence allowed. This is a firm guideline for fair fighting.
14. Time out is okay. If things get too heated, ask to continue the discussion at another time. Specify the time.
15. Remember, there is never a single winner in an honest and intimate disagreement. Both partners either win more intimacy or lose it.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

my abusive husband

met a man on line thought he was divine he talked to me hours on end he made me feel like i had a friend
he said the right things he played his cards right only to learn that he was a con artist into breaking hearts
the game of a con is so good can't believe that i misunderstood that what he was saying wasn't the truth it was what i wanted to hear
when it all boils down to is that i met a man who spoke English after three months he spoke slang
he verbally abused me everyday after the 3rd month all i am trying to say is the game of a con
did not know he was crazy he showed no signs
the game of a con
when i realized he was crazy i was 2 years in the relationship. boy you should see him when he flipped.
can tell each time when it was about to happen
that's when i knew it was a game of a con. con artist, convict con whatever
all i know is that a con is clever

Thursday, May 24, 2007

The Meaning of FRIENDS

Your Heart is Ur Love ,
Your love is Ur Spouse,
Your spouse is Ur Future,
Your future is Ur Destiny,
Your destiny is Ur Ambition,
Your ambition is Ur Aspiration,
Your aspiration is Ur Motivation,
Your motivation is Ur Belief,
Your belief is Ur Peace,
Your peace is Ur Target,
Your target is Heaven,
Heaven is no fun without FRIENDS.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

trini again‎

> A Trini is having breakfast one morning; coffee, croissants, bread, butter & jam when a Guyanese man, chewing gum, sits down next to him. The Trini ignores the Guyanese who,nevertheless, starts a conversation: Guyanese: "You Trini folk eat the whole bread??" Trini (in a bad mood): "Of course." Guyanese: (after blowing a huge bubble) "We don't. In Guyana, we only eat what's inside. The crusts, we collect in a container, recycle it, transform them into croissants and sell them to the Trinis." The Guyanese has a smirk on his face. The Trini listens in silence. The Guyanese persists: "Do you eat jelly with the bread??" Trini: "Of Course." Guyanese: (cracking his gum between his teeth and chuckling). "We don't. In Guyana we eat fresh fruit for breakfast, then we put all the peels, seeds, and leftovers in containers, recycle them, transform them into jam and sell the jam to the Trinis." The Trini then asks: "Do you have sex in Guyana?" Guyanese: "Why of course we do", the Guyanese says with a big smirkTrini: "And what do you do with the condoms once you've usedthem?" Guyanese: "We throw them away, of course." Trini: "We don't. In Trinidad, we put them in acontainer,recycle them, melt them down into chewing gum and sell them to Guyana."

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

A sad letter 2 a friend

Dont even know if still check ur mail. I think that this time apart of not talking will do, for the both of u. I never meet anything by what happened and i think that something was taken out of place.
I am not tracking u, i am not behind u, and i dont want anything from u but a friendship, if that is 2 much 2 ask for den there is nothing lelf and i am sorry u will be missed. if u still want to be friend that is ok with me.
I dont know ur new gf and she dont know me so she cant make remarks or judgment on me cause i will not do d same on her. Any way i dont know what i am going to do whenever i get back 2 trinidad, in the sense of text or talking since u didnt even want to work thing out before i left and 2 tell u the trust i dont know if i want to work it out .
if ever few months i am huring ur feealing or doing something that u dont like. I like ur friendship but i dont think that u real want it u just doing it beacuse and i dont want that. other wise saying it up 2 u. whatever u decided i am going to do with making any comments at all. i send u a call me request on my digi phone, it working up her so feel free 2 call or text or if u want just email me back its up 2 u.
THank u for ur friendship in the past hope that we can have one some day in the futher

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Some Words From the Dialect of Trinidad and Tobago

WORD ~~~ DEFINITION Aloo
~~Hindi word meaning, potato
Bacchanal ~~rowdy, scandalous behaviour; good party
Badjohn ~~a bully
Bobolee ~~a person who is habitually taken advantage of Commesse
~~confusion, controversy Cunumunu ~~a stupid, foolish person Dingolay ~~to dance with joyful abandon Fresh-water Yankee ~~a person who spends a short time in the U.S. and returns with a heavy American accent; originally, one who acquired the "yankee" accent by simply visiting the U.S. military base or the U.S. Embassy Horn ~~to cheat on a significant other Jamet ~~a prostitute Lagniappe ~~a little extra, a bonus Lime ~~hanging out, having fun, e.g., "Let's go down to the corner and lime." Maco ~~someone who minds other people's business Mamaguy ~~trying to fool someone, or being fooled by someone, e.g., Your friend is wearing an ugly dress, but you tell her that it's beautiful. Mamapoule ~~hen-pecked husband; a derogatory term for a husband who seems to be controlled by his wife Mas ~~masquerade, Carnival Obzokee ~~awkward, out of place, misshapen Ol' talk ~~empty chatter, nonsense, e.g., "What you're saying is a bunch of ol' talk." Parang ~~originates from the spanish influence when the Venezuelans settled as estate workers on the plantations; they introduced the Christmas celebration of serenading from one household to another; parang is derived from "parandero" or "serenader" Peong ~~someone who seems to be addicted to or obsessed with something, e.g., "You're a TV peong," meaning someone who watches too much televisionSaga Boy ~~a male who is boastful of his physical attributes Sampat ~~an unfair attack, ambush Screw Pan ~~an angry or determined look on a person's face; usually makes them look humorously ugly Soucouyant ~~usually an old woman who turns herself into a ball of fire and passes through a keyhole to suck one's blood; a vampire Tabanca ~~the feeling of hurt when a romantic relationship ends Toutoulbay ~~a gullible person Yampee ~~mucus found in the corner of the eyes after a long night's sleep

Friday, March 23, 2007

Gay themes introduced in British schools

Gay themes introduced in British schools
By Don MelvinCox
News ServiceLONDON -
In British schools, young children are learning that the prince doesn't always fall in love with a princess. And not every family includes Mama Bear and Papa Bear.A new pilot project is using picture books, the arts, drama and other techniques to introduce gay themes to schoolchildren aged of 4 to 11.In one picture book, "King & King," a prince fails to fall in love with three different princesses before finally falling in love with a man.In another, "And Tango Makes Three," a zookeeper realizes that two male penguins are in love. He gives them an egg; the hatchling, Tango, grows up with two fathers.The project, called No Outsiders, is needed to combat the "absolutely massive" problem of bias against homosexuals among British schoolchildren, said Elizabeth Atkinson, the director.
"There are more homo phobic incidents in our schools than racist incidents," she said.This bias ranges, she said, from the casual and common use of the word "gay" as an insult to serious bullying of children with two parents of the same gender. Such bullying can do children serious harm, she said, prompting them to withdraw and causing their academic performance to decline.But the project has had the effect of uniting conservative Christians and Muslims in opposition."Islam doesn't approve of that sort of behavior," said Tahir Alam, the education spokesman for the Muslim Council of Britain.
"It's morally unacceptable. "Simon Calvert, a spokesman for the Christian Institute, did not return phone calls seeking comment. But he told the Sunday Observer newspaper that the No Outsiders project amounted to "the active promotion of homosexuality in schools.""Let's arrange a series of meetings around the country where parents of primary school children can look at the se books," he said. "The majority would be aghast."
The project has received nearly $1.2 million in government money, funneled through the Economic and Social Research Council, a nongovernmental organization that makes its own decisions on how to spend the grants it gets. Requests for comment from the council went unanswered.The pilot project involves 14 schools in England. Atkinson said she hopes the program will soon be extended.
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007

The Rules Of Relationships

The Rules Of Relationships

Human beings crave intimacy, need to love and be loved. Yet people have much trouble doing so.It's clear from the many letters I get that lots of folks have no ideawhat a healthy relationship even looks like. Because I care aboutthese things, and care about the environments children grow in, I'm using this space as an attempt to remedy the problem -- again.From many sources and many experts, I have culled some basic rules ofrelationships. This is by no means an exhaustive list. But it's astart. Print them out and pin them up on your refrigerator door. I won't test you on them -- but life will.
# Choose a partner wisely and well. We are attracted to people for allkinds of reasons. They remind us of someone from our past. They showerus with gifts and make us feel important. Evaluate a potential partner as you would a friend -- look at their character, personality, values,their generosity of spirit, the relationship between their words andactions, their relationships with others.
# Know your partner's beliefs about relationships. Different people have different and often conflicting beliefs about relationships. Youdon't want to fall in love with someone who expects lots of dishonestyin relationships -- they'll create it where it doesn't exist.
# Don't confuse sex with love. Especially in the beginning of arelationship, attraction and pleasure in sex are often mistaken forlove.
# Know your needs and speak up for them clearly. A relationship is not a guessing game. Many people, men as well as women, fear stating theirneeds and, as a result, camouflage them. The result is disappointmentat not getting what they want and anger at a partner for not havingmet their (unstated) needs. Closeness cannot occur without honesty.Your partner is not a mind reader.
# Res pect, respect, respect. Inside and outside the relationship, actin ways so that your partner always maintains respect for you. Mutual respect is essential to a good relationship.# View yourselves as a team, which means you are two uniqueindividuals bringing different perspectives and strengths. That is thevalue of a team -- your differences.
# Know how to manage differences; it's the key to success in arelationship. Disagreements don't sink relationships. Name-callingdoes. Learn how to handle the negative feelings that are theunavoidable byproduct of the differences between two people. Stonewalling or avoiding conflicts is not managing them.
# If you don't understand or like something your partner is doing, askabout it and why he or she is doing it. Talk and explore, don'tassume.
# Solve problems as they arise. Don't let resentments simmer. Most ofwhat goes wrong in relationships can be traced to hurt feelin gs,leading partners to erect defenses against one another and to become strangers. Or enemies.
# Learn to negotiate. Modern relationships no longer rely on rolescast by the culture. Couples create their own roles, so that virtuallyevery act requires negotiation. It works best when good will prevails. Because people's needs are fluid and change over time, and life'sdemands change too, good relationships are negotiated and renegotiatedall the time.
# Listen, truly listen, to your partner's concerns and complaints without judgment. Much of the time, just having someone listen is allwe need for solving problems. Plus it opens the door to confiding. Andempathy is crucial. Look at things from your partner's perspective as well as your own.# Work hard at maintaining closeness. Closeness doesn't happen byitself. In its absence, people drift apart and are susceptible toaffairs. A good relationship isn't an end goal -- it's a lifelong process maintained through regular attention.
# Take a long-range view. A marriage is an agreement to spend a futuretogether. Check out your dreams with each other regularly to make sureyou're both on the same path. Update your dreams regularly. # Never underestimate the power of good grooming.
# Sex is good. Pillow talk is better. Sex is easy, intimacy isdifficult. It requires honesty, openness, self-disclosure, confidingconcerns, fears, sadnesses as well as hopes and dreams.
# Never go to sleep angry. Try a little tenderness.
# Apologize, apologize, apologize. Anyone can make a mistake. Repairattempts are crucial and highly predictive of marital happiness. Theycan be clumsy or funny, even sarcastic -- but willingness to make up after an argument is central to every happy marriage.
# Some dependency is good, but complete dependency on a partner forall one's needs is an invitation to un happiness for both partners.We're all dependent to a degree -- on friends, mentors, spouses. This is true of men as well as women.
# Maintain self-respect and self-esteem. It's easier for someone tolike you and to be around you when you like yourself. Research hasshown that the more roles people fill, the more sources of self-esteem they have. Meaningful work -- paid or volunteer -- has long been oneof the most important ways to exercise and fortify a sense of self.
# Enrich your relationship by bringing into it new interests fromoutside the relationship. The more passions in life you have and share, the richer your relationship will be. It is unrealistic toexpect one person to meet all of your needs in life.
# Cooperate, cooperate, cooperate. Share responsibilities.Relationships work only when they are two-way streets, with much give and take.# Stay open to spontaneity.
# Maintain your energy. Stay hea lthy.
# Recognize that all relationships have their ups and downs and do notride at a continuous high all the time. Working together through the hard times will make the relationship stronger.
# Make good sense of a bad relationship by examining it as areflection of your beliefs about yourself. Don't just run away from abad relationship; you'll only repeat it with the next partner. Use it as a mirror to look at yourself, to understand what in you is creatingthis relationship. Change yourself before you change yourrelationship.
# Understand that love is not an absolute, not a limited commodity that you're in of or out of. It's a feeling that ebbs and flowsdepending on how you treat each other. If you learn new ways tointeract, the feelings can come flowing back, often stronger thanbefore.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

A Friend

The last 2 post was request by a friend of mine 2 add on my blog. Any option or ques on it. Plz email me @ no1ballgirl@msn.com

Thank U

If any example

If any example should be given by the priest is showing love and compassion as gays and lesbians are also children of God. I guess the church forgot that one. Remember what Jesus stated when the tribes where about to stone a woman to death because she was caught in the act of adultery.... "let he who is without sin cast the first stone." No one could pick up a rock!

If the want to get on about what is sin, there are many examples.... lying, robbing, stealing, adultery, fornication and the list goes on. I am certain all of the "holier than thou" people out there have tonnes of skeletons in their closets.

Nuff said!

elton john is scheduled to perform here in april for the tobago jazz festival.

elton john is scheduled to perform here in april for the tobago jazz festival.
the country is in a big to-do over the fact that elton is gay. yes i live on an island where homosexuality is a crime. sodomy is illegal and ppl who are openly gay can be refused entry into the island. elton john is gay.
so am i. big fucking deal. you don't see me preaching hate about all unwed mothers and skanky whores, racists, corrupt and morally bankrupt citizens of trinidad and tobago.
i am GAY. i hurt no one in the process. i don't think i am as big a hypocrite as those self righteous hypocrites here who religiously venture to the house of the lord and quote from the book of numbers at every turn and comport themselves in the most vulgar and disgusting way for carnival every year. wait- why restrict it to carnival? just go to any party or club on a weekend.
i am GAY. i am not a parent who does not take the time to teach my child basic manners and morals. i am not a worker who does not get my job done. i am not a driver who treats the road like a race course. i am no criminal who rapes, steals or cheats the system.
i am GAY. i am not an aberration of nature any more than those ppl who try so badly to lighten the colour of their skin or change the texture of their hair.
i am GAY. don't judge me based on whom i fuck. judge me as a human, a worker, a sister, daughter or friend. so elton is gay. he is also a singer and a damn good one... which to me, was the point of jazz fest anyway- to showcase talent. what does it matter who his life partner is? to coin the most cliched phrase- we're here, we're queer... deal with it!

Friday, March 09, 2007

How to Make a Woman Happy

How to Make a Woman Happy
It's not difficult to make a woman happy.
A man only needs to be:
1. a friend
2 a companion
3. a lover
4. a brother
5. a father
6. a master
7. a chef
8. an electrician
9. a carpenter
10. a plumber
11. a mechanic
12. a decorator
13. a stylist
14. a sexologist
15. a gynecologist
16. a psychologist
17. a pest exterminator
18. a psychiatrist
19. a healer
20. a good listener
21. an organizer
22. a good father
23. very clean
24. sympathetic
25. athletic
26. warm
27. attentive
28. gallant
29. intelligent
30. funny
31. creative
32. tender
33. strong
34. understanding
35. tolerant
36. prudent
37. ambitious
38. capable
39. courageous
40. determined
41. true
42. dependable
43. passionate
44. compassionate WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:
45. give her compliments regularly
46. love shopping
47. be honest
48. be very rich
49. not stress her out
50. not look at other girls AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:
51. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself
52. give her lots of time, especially time for herself
53. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes IT IS VERY IMPORTANT:
54. Never to forget: * birthdays * anniversaries * arrangements she makes
HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY
1. Show up naked
2. Bring

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Only Love Lyrics

LoveI used to think that I knew what we neededI just assumed we would always be fineNow I don't think that we lost the feelingBut we, let everything build up insideIt's only loveBut love, should make us strongIt's only loveBut love, has been hurting so longWhat a challenge, honestyWhat a struggle to learn to speakWho would've thought that pretending was easierIt's only loveBut love, should make us strongIt's only loveBut love, has been hurting so longAnd it's all, a part of meIt tears at my heartOnly loveAnd it's all an eternityHoping to learnOnly loveLoveThere's a part of you I'm trying to reachStill a part I don't knowTell me, is devotion a gift or a thiefDo you wish I'd let goIt's only loveBut love, should make us strongIt's only loveBut love, has been hurting so longAnd it's all, a part of meIt tears at my heartOnly loveAnd it's all, eternityHoping to learnOnly loveOnly love, only loveOnly love, only love, only love, onlyOnly love, only love, only love, only loveLove, only love
i was under false impressions, these lyrics torture me, i cannot listen to them. i am feeling like my heart is bleeding with this n im sorry... i cant stop the memories. i want to but they wont stop, i jus hafta lie down and feel the tears trickle down my face and watch the automaticd replay of the hurtful memories now..i am soo sorry i dont like it...i just want to be alone right now while oi try to figure wat the hell is going on with me...with sk...and cs...everything liek that
women are worth these kinds of pains...they are worth it..no man is...gosh i feel so crushed right now..my feelings are bleed from me right now...i don twnat to hurt my baby...i KNOW i love her i just need to find the proof inside me right now

i hav to confess or else i wll dieeee

I am feeling as if my hollow chest is being torn into pieces.
My fair flesh is ripping and pulling apart exposing my ever-bleeding, fragile, soft heart.
Why do you love me?
It is killing me slowly.
Why are you making me die a slow broken-hearted death?
Why?

Oh God! Help me!
I need to know.I need to cry onto you.
I will moan in pain for you.
I will grieve my death a thousand times just for you.

I am on my grazed, blistered, redenned knees.
My palms are bruised...
Your love is so painful...
Do I really want this?
Loving you is so self-consuming and self-combusting

Oh God! Help me!
I need to know.I need to cry onto you.
I will moan in pain for you.
I will grieve my death a thousand times just for you.

Touch my hand and touch my heart, and I'm falling into myself dying, decaying on the inside.
Touch me with your love once again.
Save me this time.
Cut my emotional flesh.
Sing my seranade at our funeral. (i die and u die into me, inside me)

Oh God! Help me!
I need to know.I need to cry onto you.
I will moan in pain for you.
I will grieve my death a thousand times just for you.

jed this is flecked OR not

jed this is flecked OR not
i doh noe na....
i feeling so like "i-doh-care"
i feeling as though i need abreak from my "relationship"
i NOE i does do shit jed..gosh man...iz nuh like i doh noe so SORRY NA

but u does do shit too...na i doh think so i sitting here thinking of her..
iz only me who does shit up bigg time...

leave me then
forget me then
i'd prefer if u spit in my face and bruise my arm
go far away from me
distance urself frome me
i not the person...i am a fuckin' psycho
YES
HEHEHEHHEHAHAHAH
the clowns playing in my head
the nymphs and faries dancing in my head
the constant running and hiding in my head
the nephetamine in my blood
the sadistic tendances in my head (call your doctor for me NOW)
the battle of light and dark in my head
without you the suicidal tendancies are deadened in my head
without you the reality is far less nerve wrecking
i need not u for my spirit in me

i am missing her
i am thinking of her
i am wanting her
i am wanting her love
quote "Save me this time"
she...keeps the feelings in me running warm through out my body to my fingertips to i can be warm to others.
cuz im missing her like hell..im smashed without her right now
im broken inside...fix me...mend me...please.

CONCLUSION: i love her

today i said sum really awful stuff to my babygirl...

today i said sum really awful stuff to my babygirl...

i dont know..i ws gonig psycho today on her and really hurt her bad...i realized afta...

sweetheart i want to u know i was not okay then and im ok now... i love u so much i regret it soo much now i hurt u more than nething else...baby u never hurt me b4 and im smashed again cuz im always the one hhurting u....and causing u pain..i think that i underestimate ur love for me..and im really sorry iz jus that im insecure bout it...yes i noe i am actually admittin it...go this feels soooo damn naked..as if my mind is being stripped and searched..im insecure and im sorry...really sorry...ya i noe i hafta deal wid it on my own...i noe..i jus soo fricking scared...i doh noe...i rell alone in this ting and i rell trying to figgure it all out...i really doh wanna b the moody, irritating, insecure, fucked up gf..really i doh wanna b that for u...u've been through enuffin ur life and daz the las thing u need right now...
baby i noe i does tell u doh read my blog but everything now is directed to u and concerning u but still these are things i cant tell u on the phone so i jus typee it out here..gosh u probably thinking i soo sad eh..yea baby i noe i sad..a sad femme...sigh... i cya help it...i jus built so...u probably will read this like i doh noe when but i reall want u to know u rell changed me in ways i never thought i cud hav changed lemme tell u....from day 1...no lie i had rell liked u the first time we tlkd....
1) ur love made me cut dwn the amt i smoke and eventually i will stop
2) ur love made me stop my loose slutty ways and start having sum dugnity and class (yea i noee sryyyy)
3) ur love made me stay home and not lime every fricking weeking and get drunk
4) u made me actually think bout my future and the way it was heading
5) u made me realize... not every1 is a heartbreaker...and that sum ppl actually hav feelings
for every tear u shed bcuz of me i will pay a price for it...i hate hurting u...i love u i dont hate u
6)u made me see the entire world in a different perspective...bcuz of u hunny i can accept me for who i am (u noe wat i mean)
if i hadn't known u i wod hav been struggling for acceptance in society and having inner crisis bout myself...U
7) it was actually U who made me realize...not everything can go my way...watever comes my way i jus hafta deal wid it ACCORDINGLY
8) sweety...u made me realize i cant buy everytihng...yea...u actually made me realize that..i doh noe how but ya that comes in here
9) u made me think bout a FAMILY in the future..i doh noe how either...but u jus did...whenever i thought bout u...these little things clicked in my mind.
10) MOST IMPORTANTLY...u made me stop hurting...and u made me face myself in the mirror and u made me forgive myself for my mistakes i made...u tld me that everything was ok and made it ok for me..u made me feel guiltless...u hav no idea how guilty i used to feel for everything little thing...u made me confront my bleeding heart and made me watch u heal it for me...my god u rell touched my heart cindy...like relll made it stop hurting...i actually used to feel a tingly painful sensation in my chest everytime i told u i love u..it used to hurt..i felt i owed sk sum...u know who im tlknig bout...i felt soooo guilty everytime i said those words to u...OMG...an u noe i rell hate to cry... i had sooo blocked out my heart and feelings linked to that...that i cudnt even cry...u sooo melted that...omgg...i hate to cry but i really want to cry when im tlkin to u but i fight it...cuz daz jus nuh me...i love u sooo much..iz like i feeling to cry like right right nowwwww...so sadd...i noeee...i noe i rell sadd....iz jus that u hav made me a better person... i doh noe if iz jus me..but thye only thing i wod like is for u u tlk more openly bout ur feelings wid me...i love u...omg i am saying things here that i doh ever tell ne1 not even U!!!!
sigh..well the one thing that does rell get to me i wo d never ever write that here or even tell u lol....never ever....
i used to think i cud live this life widout ne1..all independant and stuff like that....
i had vowed never ever to fall in love after the whole sk scene. i guess i broke my vow.
i rell love u girll...if u leave me i will kill myself..i am letting it loose to the public...
i love u like crazi
dont leave me
stay with me
yuh love mea?
how much?
i love u too
more than myself or ne1 i know
u love me?
and i love u
i wod never leave u
i wod never cheat on u
i dont want ne boy
i dont want a c**k
i love how ur dark
ur everything i could ever want...ever need...
ur the only reason that im alive today...
ur perfect for me...every single thing i need AND want crafted into simply u

if u ever read this i hope...i doh noe wat i hope but YA I SAD lol rell sad sry!
love u always

Only Love Lyrics

Only Love Lyrics

LoveI used to think that I knew what we neededI just assumed we would always be fineNow I don't think that we lost the feelingBut we, let everything build up insideIt's only loveBut love, should make us strongIt's only loveBut love, has been hurting so longWhat a challenge, honestyWhat a struggle to learn to speakWho would've thought that pretending was easierIt's only loveBut love, should make us strongIt's only loveBut love, has been hurting so longAnd it's all, a part of meIt tears at my heartOnly loveAnd it's all an eternityHoping to learnOnly loveLoveThere's a part of you I'm trying to reachStill a part I don't knowTell me, is devotion a gift or a thiefDo you wish I'd let goIt's only loveBut love, should make us strongIt's only loveBut love, has been hurting so longAnd it's all, a part of meIt tears at my heartOnly loveAnd it's all, eternityHoping to learnOnly loveOnly love, only loveOnly love, only love, only love, onlyOnly love, only love, only love, only loveLove, only love

sigh.....

sigh.....
i believe u dont love me

cant even write what i want to write here anymore

what i know i will never tell u

maybe it would not be so complicated if i wasnt in love

i am going to break up with u
i dont know how to tell u it
sigh
it would not be so complicated and hard on me AND u

i think of u b4 i think about myself
maybe if i believe more that u dont love me it would actucally make u let go

of course i am jus there to occupy spear time until u get busy again sigh

i dont mind being your plaything

i dont mind being you punchingbag

i dont mind being an amusement for u

i dont mind if u want to leave me becuz i was going to do it anyways

WE ARE OFFICIALLY OVER.

Dear faith

Dear faith
I'm coming slowly now to lifeWhen all expression seems to dieMorning wake i've chosen better not to lieWill you carry me awaySo bitter now As the atmosphere destroys our chemisryI'm deafened by your silenceBurnt by this changing destinyAnd i waitBut tonight I'll grind my teeth awayYour memories,you're ghost is here with me andThe air is thick with silenceit tastes so bitters
In the agony (the agony)of self-destructionStolen confidence in words i'll never speakYou've let me downAnd i die in self-defeatAnd i'll cry for youAnd i will cry for youAnd i'll cry for youOn weakened kneesGuess this is what you decided for me

Sunday, January 21, 2007

thing 2 remember

24 Things to Always Remember and 1 Thing to Never forget. . .
1. Your presence is a present to the world.
2. You're unique and one of a kind.
3. Your life can be what you want it to be.
4. Take the days just one at a time.
5. Count your blessings, not your troubles.
6. You'll make it through whatever comes along.
7. Within you are so many answers.
8. Understand, have courage, be strong.
9. Don't put limits on yourself.
10. So many dreams are waiting to be realized.
11. Decisions are too important to leave to chance.
12. Reach for your peak, your goal, and your prize.
13. Nothing wastes more energy than worrying.
14. The longer one carries a problem, the heavier it gets.
15. Don't take things too seriously.
16. Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.
17. Remember that a little love goes a long way.
18. Remember that a lot . . . goes forever.
19. Remember that friendship is a wise investment.
20. Life's treasures are people . . . together.
21. Realize that it's never too late.
22. Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
23. Have health and hope and happiness.
24. Take the time to wish upon a star. And don't ever forget . . . For even a day . . . How very special you are.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Lesbian and Gay Trinidad And Tobago

Homosexuality is illegal in Trinidad & Tobago and gay visitors are not officially welcome! However, with a population of over one million there are gay people on the islands and a small scene to boot. Unfortunately, successive governments in Trinidad & Tobago have refused to repeal ancient laws on homosexuality which date back to Queen Victoria. The laws are not enforced and no prosecutions have been made for many years. Because of the legal position and the prevailing homophobic attitude in society many gays are closeted. Many gay islanders marry and have homosexual relations "on the side". There are some gay and lesbians who are more open and there is a bigger gay scene in Trinidad & Tobago than any other regional country except Puerto Rico. The gay scene is centred in the Port of Spain and there are at the time of writing three gay bars/nightclubs plus a number of mixed places. During Carnival time people let their hair down and after much drinking anything goes with sexual prudery being thrown out the window. Despite the legal position Trinidad & Tobago is definately some where to think about if you fancy a holiday in the Carribbean where there is some gay life.

Gay age of consent:
Illegal

Lesbian age of consent:
Illegal

Legal notes:
Under Article 8 (18/1) of the Immigration Act, homosexual men and women are not allowed to enter the country. Section 13 of the Sexual Offences Act 1986 criminalises "buggery". This Section provides a penalty of up to life imprisonment, if committed on a minor; up to 10 years' imprisonment if committed on an adult (18 years) by another adult; up to 5 years' imprisonment if committed by a minor on an adult. Section 16, relating to "serious indecency", provides a penalty of up to 20 years' imprisonment for homosexual acts between men and between women.

population:
1.18 million

Currency:
Trinidad & Tobago Dollar

Climate:
Trinidad & Tobago has a tropical climate influenced and modified by the surrounding sea and the trade winds. The climate is characterised by a dry season from January to May which is the best time to visit. The wet season is from June to December. The warmest month is July and the coolest is January. The wettest months are June through to November and average annual rainfall varies from 2,540mm to 3,810mm depending on the region. Average temperature ranges on the coast are from 24c to 26c all year.

IDD phone prefix:
1868

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

>>Jesus had no servants, yet they called Him Master. >>Had no degree, yet they called Him Teacher. >>Had no medicines, yet they called Him Healer. >>He had no army, yet kings feared Him. He won no military battles, >>yet He >>conquered the world. >>He committed no crime, yet they crucified Him. >>He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today. >> >>I feel honored to serve such a Leader who loves us! >> >>If you believe in God and in Jesus Christ His Son .. send this to >>all on >>your >>buddy list .. if not just ignore it. >> >>If you ignore it, just remember that Jesus said ... "If you deny me >>before >>man, I will deny you before my Father in Heaven."

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Xmas

Merry Christmas 2 all and a happy new Yr.

I know that it has been some time i have added anything 2 ma blog. But i have been so out of it for some time. I have been trying 2 figure out some thing. U know relationship prob if u can call it that. I dont know where i stand at all or even if i have somewhere 2.

Maybe its because i have been single for so long i dont know what goes on or because i am looking for something that not even there. I am have so many ques and such little answer. But i time i will good or bad. but at least i know d answers. (hahhaahhaah).

Well what kind u do but hope for d best and try 2 go with d flow.

Friday, November 03, 2006

The Homophobia Page Of SXETHIC

homophobia , 31 oct 1999

INTRODUCTION
This page was compiled by myself from a variety of sources to display the role homophobia plays in society. Just as a soldier can be discharged from service for being homosexual, some countries employ the same "principals" in their prosecution system. For the most part people put their faith in the universal statement for human rights, although this does not contain much in the way of homosexual human rights. So in many counties today, homosexuals are legally tried and prosecuted for effectively being homosexual. In some countries even a death sentence can also legally be handed down for the "crime" of homosexuality.
In India for instance, a homosexual couple living together, could warrant a life sentence, for nothing but their sexual preference. This law is based on an old British law from 1867; which prohibits "un-natural" sex which is formulated as following; "Anyone whom has voluntarily sexual intercourse with man, woman or animal against order of nature is punished by life imprisonment". Before then such a law had not existed and was introduced by British government officials to be used against Oscar Whilde, a local homosexual of the time.

Homosexuals can face a sentence of 3 years of imprisonment in Nicaragua for their sexuality. Homosexuals are forced into sexual exile in such countries, and due to local hatred are forced to live a marginal existence at best. For the most part these predijuces are fed to the local populations by officials and religious groups who dont see homosexuality as a fit lifestyle. Some local homosexuals stated that; "walking with a friend along the street is like a bomb, like a time bomb, cause soon or later you'll get caught", "It's something that should be hidden, when government officials find out you'll get punished". Locals defend their social oppression; "It's god prohibition", "It's against god's law" or some described "a sin not to be forgiven".

Some teenage homosexual's have been taken to doctors and physiologists when their sexual interest in the same sex became present. These teenagers were all found to be mentally, physically and spiritually healthy. Some locals, who are homosexual and also sympathetic with the homosexual population of the region state; "People just cannot understand that one cannot ignore what she or he's feeling", "People haven't chosen to be "lesbian" or "gay", like me, i'm born with my love for women".
CONSEQUENCES

Texas, easily the most conservative state in modern day America, homosexual aversion is present thoroughly throughout the state. While the church keeps feeding the local population morals like; "the household, the family is the cornerstone brick of each society". Families are the ones to suffer in the end from such moral programing, for instance a texan mother; married with a child, found her true sexuality late in life, and divorced. This was as a jury put it "immoral" and so dismissed her parental rights, giving custody of her 12 year old son to his father. Even though the child explained that he would have prefered to live with his mother rather then his father.

By in effect; alienating the homosexual lifestyle in a wide scale, especialy to young children still comming to terms with their sexuality is it any wonder the worlds suicide rate of teens is rising. It would seem that society and parents are more concered about protecting the younger generations from everything to the point that they are presuring their children at a very young age. Of course we are not living in a perfect world, by any means, but a child simply has to live their own lives the way they see fit. Certain factors obviously need to be left to the gaurdian until the child reaches an age of required maturity. But to ostricise a sexual preference to a child before they even know what sexual preference the actual child is, is like lighting a social bomb for a child. If a child growns up learning that being homosexual is "wrong" then what hope is there for that child if he or she finds they are homosexual in later life.
Romania is one of the last countries within the Council of Europe where homosexuality is an offense. Whenever section 200 will be removed from the penal code or not; will not make much of a difference overnight. The romanian population as it seems will unfortunatly hold on to it's ignorant relation which is against homosexuality for some time to come no matter what. Romanians seem to have a deep set hatred for homosexuals of all kinds, it has been stated that they are simply used as a meaningless scapegoat for the exculating poverty of the country. Quote from locals:"Homosexuals are people that ruin the place"
Homosexuals have no place in Romanian society and so no place to work and live very secluded. As they're considered as criminals and a dangerous threat to society by inhabitants, police and authorities. Some individuals sold underwear (about three a day) on the street to make a living. On the third of June, 1998, the motion to the legalization of homosexualty has been refused by Romanian parliament. Everything will stay like it was before. Inspite of the promises that have been made to the Council of Europe times before. Homosexuality is liable to an imprisonment of 5 years.
The following is an excerpt from one of the orginal texts i used to compile this essay. As no name was appended to the information i used i could not credit the orginal writer.
Freedom in Romania does exist but its society does just not allow the freedom homosexuals want. This does not only reflect the serious ignorance of today's society but also the senseless oppression of sexual minorities and the apathetic blindness of followers of a fantasy book and god that belongs to it.

THE SENTENCES
The following is simply a table of the most recent prison sentances for the contiries which prosecute on the basis of homosexuality. The time of writing this essay was 31, Oct 1999.

IMPRISONMENT SENTENCES

Algeria - 3 years
Jamacia - 10 years
Bahamas - 10 years
Kenia - 14 years + copral punishment
Bangladesh - 1 year
Lybia - 4 years
Bosnia - 7 years
Marokko - 3 years + money-fine
Cuba - 1 year
Nigeria - 14 years
China - 5 years
Pakistan - lifesentence + whiplash
Equador - 8 years
Trindad - 2 years to 10 years
Fiji - 5 years to 15 years
Uganda - 5 years to 15 years
Guyana - 4 years to lifesentence
Zambia - 8 years to 14 years

DEATH SENTENCES
Iran - Death by Stoning
Saudi Arabia - decapitation by a sword

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Why am I not happy?

Over the past few week I have been wondering to myself on why I am felling so unhappy des day’s. I have been questioning so many thing in my life that it is beginning 2 worry me 2 a point that I thinking funny things. I don’t know why I am thinking that way. My life so far is going well. I have complete school, I have a job, I have a social life and I have not child or children to mine, I have no rent to pay, I have nothing really 2 worry about. But yet I am not happy?
I sometimes thing that it have to do with the fact that I am not were I am that I throw I will be at this age. But I am still young I have time, but still I am and that what I don’t get. You see I am the kind of person that thing in the further 2 much. I don’t life for 2day and for the moment and it not a bad thing but sometimes it can get out of hand.

Long time

It has been a long time since I have sat down and wrote on ma blog. I have been so busy with so many different thing that it Eint funny. Some of it has been good and d other have been some dam good learn experience if u look at it in a good eye. I have make some changes that I thou that I will have never change and I am happy about that.
To give u all a little hint. HM how come I put this. Okay I have decided 2 be nice. I am going to take everything as a said before as a learning experience.

Let ma put u up 2 speed.- Men- I have not as yet made any decision on what I am going to do with both a dem. Something I wish I can take everything I like about each of dem and make a person out of that. HAHAHA – boy I do wish.
- Work – Over the past few month as school open some shit went down that I know nothing about and 2 tell u the truth I don’t want to know at all. So when it come 2 that I am staying very far. Other dam that some other people stop talking 2 ma and I have try 2 find out why and I don’t know what happened and I am done trying.

- Friends- Well for ma I am at a lost for word for dem there are good days and bad days.

Monday, September 25, 2006

Sarah Story

My name is SarahI am but three
,My eyes are swollenI cannot see,
I must be stupid,I must be bad,
What else could have madeMy daddy so mad?
I wish I were better,I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my MommyWould still want to hug me.I can't speak at all,
I can't do a wrongOr else I'm locked upAll the day long.
When I awake I'm all aloneThe house is darkMy folks aren't home.When my Mommy does comeI'll try and be nice,So maybe I'll get justOne whipping tonight.Don't make a sound!I just heard a carMy daddy is backFrom Charlie's Bar.I hear him curseMy name he callsI press myselfAgainst the wall.I try and hideFrom his evil eyesI'm so afraid nowI'm starting to cry.He finds me weepingHe shouts ugly words,He says its my faultThat he suffers at work.He slaps me and hits meAnd yells at me more,I finally get freeAnd I run for the door.He's already locked itAnd I start to bawl,He takes me and throws meAgainst the hard wall.I fall to the floorWith my bones nearly broken,And my daddy continuesWith more bad words spoken."I'm sorry!" I screamBut its now much too lateHis face has been twistedInto unimaginable hate.The hurt and the painAgain and againOh please God, have mercy!Oh please let it end!And he finally stopsAnd heads for the door,While I lay there motionlessSprawled on the floor.My name is SarahAnd I am but three,Tonight my daddyMurdered me.
There are thousands of kids out there just like Sarah. And you can help.It sickens me to my soul, and if you just read this and don't pass it on I pray for your forgiveness, because you would have to be one heartless person to not be affected by this email. And because you are affected, do something about it!! So all I am asking you to do is take some time to send this on and acknowledge that this stuff does happen, and that people like her dad do live in our society, and pray for child abuse to wither out and die, but also pray for the safety of our youth.

Friday, August 18, 2006

Colour Eyes

Green Eyes--
Sex Addicts!!!People with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, they have long lasting relationships. People with green eyes are also the horniest and most beautiful. They long for the touch of another.People with green eyes are very sexy and very attracted towards the opposite sex. You will meet the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with if you repost this.Blue Eyes--People with blue eyes last the longest in relationships. They are kind, pretty or handsome & very good kissers.they always fall in love with there closest friends and never understand why, they are very funny and outgoing and don't care what people think or say,They are very satisfying and love to please. They can EXCEED your pleasure standards. The best of all. If you repost this and you have blue eyes you will have the best kiss sometime in the next 5 days.

-Hazel Eyes-
-People with hazel eyes are very loveable. They are really hott and awsome to be around. Their relationship tends to be very honest cause if they aren't truly in love, the relationship won't work. They are very fun to be around but don't enjoy "pet names". They fall easily for their best friends. Can make anyone laugh no matter what they're mood! They don't care what people think or say about them! They are very satisfying and love to please. They can EXCEED your pleasure standards. They would give anything to be with their special someone! They are very laid back and chill and love to just be around. If you repost this and have hazel eyes then you will be happy soon with the person who is on your heart.
-Brown eyes--

STRAIGHT UP PIMPS!!!!!Sexy as hell,people with brown eyes are very attractive, adorable, love to make new friends. Will do anything for that special person. Kind and polite Can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. Loves to please the one they care for or love,very good kissers, are straight up WARRIORS, repost this if you have brown eyes, and you will find the one that you are meant to be with within the next 7 days.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Depression: Understanding Thoughts of Suicide


Depression: Understanding Thoughts of Suicide
by Stephen L. Bernhardt
For many years I had suffered from depression and suicidal urges. I tried to determine why it was happening to me and what I could do to end my pain. The books I found were mostly statistical listings of who took their own life, their income brackets, and vocations. Personal accounts were specific to their situation and recounted little insight into why this was happening to me, or what I could do to end the intense pain.
I am, what some would say, mildly manic depressive and have a family history that would support such a conclusion. But, this is not my story. This is an attempt to help those who are depressed with suicidal thoughts, better understand what they are going through and help them find possible solutions.
Most people who are suicidal are also depressed. The two prime reasons that a person becomes depressed, are a loss of control, over their life situation and of their emotions, and secondly a loss of a positive sense of their future (loss of hope). Any therapy which is to be effective in reversing our depressed state, and the resultant suicidal urges, will have to help us regain control, and help us regain hope.
Being depressed causes us to narrow our view of the world around us to such an extent that reality becomes distorted. The negative in our lives is constantly reinforced and the positive around us is discounted as being irrelevant, or even non existent. Options to help solve our problems are rejected as having no merit, until it seems as if there is no possible solution.
An unrelenting and oppressive sadness comes over us which causes a very real pain, as if the pain of the sudden loss of a parent stays with us for weeks, months, and even years. It is as if we are trapped in a dark cave or possibly a tunnel that runs only from our constant pain to somewhere near hell, with no exit to heaven and no exit to joy. We begin to think that there is no relief and that this pain will never end. Tomorrow will be the same, or worse. Death may be the only solution!
Suicide is not a solution, it is an end before a solution can be found. It cannot be considered an option, for an option denotes we have a choice and death robs us of both, option and choice. Death is an irreversible act that does not end the pain, for it remains in those who are left behind. Even people who are totally alone, and take their own lives, transfer their pain to those of us in society who do care, and we do - care!
Many people have suicidal thoughts at some time during their lives. For most the thought is fleeting, happening after a major life loss, or at some point in life where they perceive the future as becoming hopeless. For others, life is not quite so kind, they may have a strong genetic propensity to become depressed, a chemical imbalance, or a series of unfortunate life experiences may eventually end in depression. Still others have much to do with causing their own pain by using an unrealistic cognitive thought process and having expectations in life that are not possible to achieve. Whatever the cause, we are all at risk of having strong suicidal urges when it seems as though the future has become hopeless.
There is no class or type of person that is exempt from having suicidal thoughts. Doctors, therapists, and teenagers from all walks of life, are all high on the percentage lists of completed suicide, although it seems that those people with strong religious convictions are least likely to attempt.
Suicidal "Triggers"Given a person is depressed and having suicidal thoughts, there are certain releasers or triggers which intensify the suicidal urge. Recognizing those triggers of renewed suicidal urges which are present in your life will help you to understand what is happening to you and begin to allow you more control of your emotions.
1. Beginning Therapy and After Therapy.Suicidal urges are particularly high just after a depressed patient first enters therapy. When beginning therapy the very symptoms give rise to thoughts such as "this will never work", or "why should I put myself through this, when there is no possible hope of success". Combined with these thoughts may be the possibility that the patient and therapist do not connect or bond (as may happen between any two strangers when they first meet). The expectation that therapy will fail, especially if this not the first attempt, is devastating. We begin to believe that if therapy fails, then we will never be rid of this pain, and what is the use of going on.
THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT! It is particularly tragic, when a patient has gone through therapy and the depression has substantially lifted, that they then kill themselves. It happens! Depression is episodic, in that it can come and go, sometimes in an instant. If a person is feeling euphoric and at long last can envision themselves as depression free in the future, any setback will cause a flight back to the conditioned response of suicidal ideation.
The thought of the pain returning is unbearable and the urge to die may become intense. The triggers which cause this renewed depressive and suicidal episode are usually the same things which contributed to the depression in the first place. After therapy a continued exposure to an abusive partner, an oppressive boss, the inability to overcome substance abuse, inadequate concept of self, financial problems, etc. can trigger renewed suicidal urges.
There is good news! These suicidal urges do not have to plunge you back into the depths of your depressive hell! This does not signify your therapy has failed or that you must then start again from square one. Recognizing those triggers or releasers of renewed suicidal urges that are present in your life will help you to understand when it happens and, that it can be reversed. The panic which follows renewed suicidal thoughts will be short lived if you do not allow this panic to take control of your mind. See your therapist, a friend, or the local crisis center. Let them help you talk it out, what you need now is - time. The feeling will pass, usually in 2 days or less!
Off in an isolated room playing a game with a young child, or alone in the back yard inspecting whatever, we hide trying to avoid any conversation which might remind us of the pain. Aunt Annabell, or even a stranger might ask us if we have a job yet, or if the divorce is final, and we are slammed back into depression and suicidal thoughts. A loving relative might ask us "what's wrong" and try to bring us out of our shell. An inappropriate angry outburst might follow, giving credence to the saying that "you always hurt the ones you love". We are sorry, we depress.
3. The Antagonists.The antagonists in our lives (the oppressive boss, the abusive spouse or partner, or that jerk who never quits) can easily trigger renewed suicidal urges. Strangers, at first meeting, soon recognize or sense that we are depressed. This may be an unconscious recognition on their part where our general demeanor, body posture, facial expressions, and attitude send signals that may cause them to react with outbursts of anger, which are not warranted, given the circumstances.
This unfair treatment of a depressed person is perplexing and gives rise to thoughts such as "life is so unfair", or "life sucks!". Some others may feel a compassion for the depressed person which they are seldom able to adequately express, and they may embarrass or act inappropriately. Still others seek out depressed individuals and take advantage of the situation, all in order to boost an ego that is badly in need of repair. Take heart, as our depression lifts, and we begin to regain control of our life and of our emotions, this treatment will pass - and it does!
4. Natural Events and Suicidal ThoughtsThe effect that natural events have on depression is extremely important, especially when one is beginning to overcome the depressive response. Fast moving weather front lows, the full and new moons, changes of the seasons, and decreased sunlight in winter, will cause an increased state of anxiety when a person is depressed. One is especially at risk when there is a fast moving weather front approaching the two days before the full moon. This must not be discounted as hearsay or superstition! Hollywood has made a mockery of the effect that the full moon may have on people.
When I mention the effect to people who have not experienced it, the same facial sneer always appears and anything I say after that is discounted as the babblings of an idiot. The fact is, that when depressed we are in a more primal state. Our emotions are raw and we are subject to natural changes in our environment and in our bodies. Increased risk can be anticipated during lows in the cycle of our biological state (such as during a woman's menstrual cycle - men have high and low monthly emotional and physical cycles also).
A statistical correlation has not been identified concerning suicidal attempts and the full moon because the full moon does not cause one to commit the act. The full moon and the other listed natural events cause an increased state of anxiety which exacerbates depression and increases the risk of the suicidal urge becoming strong. Actually the risk of attempts of suicide is greatest during the week after the full moon, as increased depression and the resultant suicidal urges begin to take their toll.
Strong suicidal urges, mania that approaches panic (and a resultant plunge back to depression), or deepening depression that cannot be explained by renewed life crisis, can many times be explained by looking at a calender which has the cycle of the moon marked on it! Although knowledge of what is causing this reversal does not keep it from happening, there is comfort in that one now understands what is happening and comfort that it will end in two days or less, and it does!
5. Substance AbuseNicotine, caffeine, alcohol, illegal drugs, obsessive overeating, and some prescription drugs, all have a detrimental effect on depressed persons. Many times the thought is that if the abuse can be overcome then the pain will end. In some cases this may be true, but what if attempts to overcome substance abuse fail? The failure may cause further depression making it difficult to even attempt subsequent withdrawal, let alone be successful. The truth is that it is possible to separate the depression from the substance abuse. Once the depression is overcome the substance abuse can be worked on from a position of strength rather than from a depressed state.
6. The Death Fantasy
During times of increased stress and trauma some may try to escape the pain of life by fantasizing that they are dead. The fantasy may begin with the thought that one has died, and the family and friends are standing at the grave side, they grieve and are very sorry we are dead. The vast number of people at the funeral attests to how much we were loved and admired. It had taken our death but we were finally able to communicate to them how unfair life had been for us and now they could take us seriously and realize that our pain was real. The "mock" attempts of suicide may be a similar form of fantasy, where the loved ones are visioned as standing around the hospital bed and they are finally able to realize how unbearable the pain of life was for us.
If one becomes preoccupied with the death fantasy or uses it to excess in escaping from the pain of life, the fantasy will become a conditioned response in reaction to added stress or crises. Death can become a friendly thought and one may begin to fear the pain of life more than they fear death.
7. Bipolar Disorder: A Manic Crash and Burn.The bi-polar, manic depressive person (one who alternates between periods of manic euphoria and a depressed state) should be extra careful to identify those triggers which may cause a reversal of mood. Some people seem to be able to control their manic periods, others cannot. Even those who outwardly seem to be in control are at risk if they have a reversal of fortune, and their sometimes unrealistic endeavors turn sour. The mood swing can be swift, unexpected, and dangerous. In an instant we can be slammed back into a depressed state with strong suicidal urges.
Our view of the futureThe human conscious mind is the only entity on the face of this planet which is able to conceptualize and abstract the future. The need for a positive sense of the future is one of the prime motivators of human life. This need transcends even the event of our ultimate demise and is the motivation to envision a continuation of life after death. We do not want to think that death is the end. Heaven, and life after death with God fulfills this need for the religious person, others have envisioned reincarnation, or that we enter (body whole) into another dimension without the need to believe in God. For others the legacy of their works or the continuation of their genes through their offspring is enough to give them a positive sense that death is not a complete end.
In the short term and for those who do not concern themselves with what happens after we die, there is still the need for a positive sense of our future. It is what makes us get up in the morning and face the coming day. Even in the face of adversity or drudgery we are motivated to endure, because we envision an end to these conditions and a better future at some later date. Anticipation of future events is what makes our body ready itself for the sex act, it is what motivates us to amass wealth and power, to buy a lotto ticket, to set goals and have aspirations.
Even the diehard sofa potato looks to the future as told to him by the upcoming programs in the television listings, and of course there is that next thirst quenching beer and resultant belch, to look forward to. We all have a need for something to look forward to, if we lose all hope that the future holds anything positive or that our present pain will ever end, most of us will depress.
CONCLUSIONKnowing what is happening to us goes a long way in being able to regain control over our life and our emotions. But real healing will not be possible until the depression is lifted. I recommend that anyone who is depressed and having suicidal thoughts, seek help. There are drugs which may help to maintain a depression free life, and therapy is needed to help us better understand why we became depressed and what we need to do in order to live our life in control of our emotions.
This manuscript was conceived while I sat on a ledge overlooking the abyss of hell. I would contemplate if I should follow the intense urge to jump and end it all, or if I could muster the strength to take control of my emotions and of my life. I tried so very hard to picture the future - with me in it. I hope that relating the knowledge I have gained from my experience and my pain, might somehow help ease your pain. Knowing what is happening to you and some of the reasons why it is happening, might help you regain a positive view of your future, a view that includes both, you and me.
by© Stephen L. Bernhardt - 1996-2002

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Dr Phil's Test: Here you go. Try this!

Dr Phil's Test: Here you go. Try this! Below is Dr Phil's test. (Dr. Phil scored 55; he did this test on Oprah - she got a 38.) Some folks pay a lot of! money to find this stuff out! Read on, this is very interesting! Don't be overly sensitive! The following is pretty accurate and it only takes 2 minutes. Take this test for yourself and send it to your friends. The person who sent it placed their score in the e-mail subject box. Please do the same before forwarding to your friends (send it back to the person who sent it to you.) Don't peek, but begin the test as you scroll down and answer. Answers are for who you are now...... not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today. It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees. It's only 10 simple questions, so grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers to each question. Make sure to change the subject of the e-mail to read YOUR total. When you are finished, forward this to friends/f! amily, and also send it to the person who sent this to you. Make sure to put YOUR score in the subject box. Ready?? Begin... 1. When do you feel your best? a) in the morning b) during the afternoon &and early evening c) late at night 2. You usually walk... a) fairly fast, with long steps b) fairly fast, with little steps c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face d) less fast, head down e) very slowly 3. When talking to people you.. a) stand with your arms folded b) have your hands clasped c) have one or both your hands on your hips d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair 4. When relaxing, you sit with.. a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side b) your legs crossed c! ) your legs stretched out or straight d) one leg curled under you 5. When something really amuses you, you react with... a) big appreciated laugh b) a laugh, but not a loud one c) a quiet chuckle d) a sheepish smile 6. When you go to a party or social gathering you... a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed 7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted...... a) welcome the break b) feel extremely irritated c) vary between these two extremes 8. Which of the following colors do you like most? a) red or orange b) black c) yellow or light blue d) green e) dark blue or purple f) white g) brown or gray 9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are.. a) stretched out on your back b) stretched out face down on your stomach c) on your side, slightly curled d) with your head on one arm e) with your head under the covers 10. You often dream that you are... a) falling b) fighting or struggling c) searching for something or somebody d) flying or floating e) you usually have dreamless sleep f) your dreams are always pleasant POINTS: 1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6 2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1 3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6 4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1 5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2 6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2 7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4 8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1 9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1 10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1 Now add up the total number of points. OVER 60 POINTS: Others see you as someone they should "handle with! care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you. 51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate. 41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out. 31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sens! ible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust In your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken. 21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature. UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make t! he decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.

Monday, July 17, 2006

MSN HotmaGOD WANTED ME TO TELL YOUil - Message

It shall be well with you from this day forth.No matter how much your enemies try this year, they will not succeed.You have been destined to make it and you shall surely achieve all your goals this year.For the remaining months of the year, all your agonies will be diverted and victory and prosperity will be incoming in abundance. Today God has confirmed the end of your sufferings sorrows and pains because HE that sits on the throne has remembered you. He has taken away the hardships and given you JOY. He will never let you I knocked at heaven's door this morning, God asked me... My child! What can I do for you? And I said, Father, please protect and bless the person reading this message... God smiled and answered... Request granted. If you believe, send it to seven persons and the one who sent it to you. By doing this you have succeeded in praying for eight people today. Have a Blessed Day!!

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Horosocope Test

Horoscope Test...

If you are honest this tells the truth - it's pretty good

Write your answers on a piece of paper. No cheating !!

The answers are at the bottom of this page.

1. Write the name of a person of the opposite sex.

2. Which is your favourite colour out of red, black, blue, green, yellow?

3. Your first initial?

4. Your month of birth?

5. Which colour do you like more, black or white?

6. Name of a person of the same sex as yours.

7. Your favourite number?

8. Do you like Sydney or Brisbane more?

9. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?

10. Write down a wish (a realistic one).

When you're done, scroll down. (Don't cheat)



Answers

1. You are completely in love with this person.

2. If you choose:

Red - You are alert and your life is full of love. Black - you are conservative and aggressive. Green - your soul is relaxed and you are laid back Blue - you are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love. Yellow- you are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

3. If your initial is:

A-K You have a lot of love to give in friendships in your life.

L-R You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your love life is soon to blossom.

S-Z You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

4. If you were born in: Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.

April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will last long and the memories will last forever.

July-Sep: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.

Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be too great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.

5. If you chose..... Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.

White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

6. This person is your best friend.

7. This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.

8. If you chose: Sydney: You like adventure. Brisbane: You are a laid back person.

9. If you chose:

Lake : You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved.

Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people.

10. This wish will come true

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Maybe I am 2 Nice

Sometimes I wonder if I am 2 nice to people that thing that I am an ass and very essay 2 work over. Dem at the same time that who I am. I like being nice to people and people taking by nice for some kind of weakness and that something I just don’t understand at all.
But u know what I am be old to take on small minded people like that. I am going to con’t the way I am cause I have a saying that nice people always comes out first. It is only a matter of time before they get what is coming to dem.

Making a important decision.

There is so many thing that I want to do with my life and where I am right now I can’t see myself doing it. I don’t look forward in coming and when I am there I am unhappy. I will not say that I am unhappy but just restless that all I need something advantages in my life some new project and maybe a change in environment.
When a person reach a time in there life they start to wonder about the further and what they are going to do. And that is where I am at this point of time. I want to start planning for the further, I want to do thing that I have never done better and most of all I want to life my life to the fullness.

Why I haven’t gotten a Boyfriend.

I have found myself thinking everyday of why I don’t have or gotten a Bf. I have come to see that it all because of the relationship that me and my Father have . It has been proven that once a child does not have a good relationship with her father she will have problems when she get older with guys and I am see that first hand and that is scaring me.
Hm the answer. It hard to face.
Maybe there away around it. The answer to it is trying to fix my relationship with my father. That is something at this point that I am not willing to do at all. It not because I am mean it is because I am not willing to open up all does emotion that I have close down for some many yr. I am afraid that people will see the real me that person that has emotion and feeling and of most of it all a broken heart.
I can say that I am not ready for that. I am not ready for the pain and to tell ur the trust I am not ready to be healed or to forgive……………………………………………..

It may song like dem that what u want u most not like urself or don’t want to move on or get on with ur life. But I do. I real want 22222222222222222222222…………………

But it is just that first step that scared me to a point that I cant move and I become so sick, emotional and mentally.

O lord I don’t know what to do………………………………………

Thursday, June 15, 2006

TNT FOOTBALL

Trinidad and Tobgago football are out there making us happy. They are playing a good game and should keep it up.
Our prays go out to the soca boys.
May the lord bless dem in everygame they play.
The Fans

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Soca Boys

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Ya man

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International Fans

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Deferences

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Showing the TnT

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Giving a hand

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The boys

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The man

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enjoying

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Love for the game

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Love

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football

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The boys

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Soca boys

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